Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond

I've got a tight grip on reality, but I can't let go of what's in front of me here

Okay, main thing today (and first thing as well for the day) was the talk by the Dean of the senior high, Miss Chua. It was a part lecture and mostly motivational speech for us to improve on our grades. The talk lasted a mere hour, but nonetheless it did make an impact, for myself at least. It made me reflect a lot again, how much do I want to score those grades? What kind of revision and preparations have I made? Did I put in enough effort? Did I revise sufficiently, thoroughly? The hunger for knowledge, to understand, to know how to apply concepts, that's one thing I need to keep in mind too. Seriously what have I been doing all this time? Left SR3 with mixed emotions, didn't really feel like going for GP but still went. It's a mixture of well, a bit of motivation to keep going and improve, but yet sadness and well ironically felt a bit demoralised at the same time. I guess I stated the reasons before in previous posts. Enough said. I'll just keep trying.

Played basketball for PE again, since there was lightning alert and no lesson by right. Well if our plans go right, maybe we can have a 09SH25 and 09SH27 chalet combined together. The relationship between the guys is seriously damn cool haha. Burned out during Chem lecture, which was in the hall today since there was leadership symposium I think. Freaking missed what was covered for ionic equilibria, and Mrs Chiew was the lecturer. Sorry :/ Had consultation with Mrs Low with Nigel and Panyu. Managed to clear some concepts at least. Watched the NDC rehearsal with You'en, Edmund, Wei Shian, Jian Zhong and Darrell. Miss marching in a parade and stuff. Memories again. Side note, let's keep going guys, we'll be there for each other, no matter what shit comes our way. Let's keep going on till the end. 97 days

Oh yeah, Mr Yong informed us that we got the Friends of CHS award. Nice, too bad cannot be present during speech day on Friday. After celebrations shall go get it I guess. Note to self: Get more sleep tonight. Okay a bit of a spoiler, but heard this during the rehearsal today. Reminded me about the song. Quite nice for the tune, thought the lyrics are a tad depressing lol. Still, it's full of meaning. Yeah I'm on my way to believing

The Only Exception -- Paramore


When I was younger, I saw my daddy cry
And curse at the wind
He broke his own heart and I watched
As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that
She would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist
But darling, you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we've got to find other ways to make it alone
Or keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
But you are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof, it's not a dream, oh
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception
You are the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, and I'm on my way to believing

mentally challenged @ 8:46 PM