Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live
Okay got back not long ago. Thursday, I stayed wide awake for all the lessons and lectures. The GP compre test was well not very easy, A level paper man zzz.. PE we played netball lol. Okay lah, not too bad a game. A bit like captain's ball I guess? Physics consol, mcq paper, no comments.. Went to play floorball after that. Okay spent most of the time talking to Wei Chen. After that still managed to play thankfully. Had a lot of fun catching up with my seniors (: Managed to stay awake for all the important lectures and lessons for friday too. BUT, econs felt sleepy. I think it's my food from my break lah sian. Maybe I should cut down to avoid all the drowziness from my food digesting lol. Stayed back after school to chiong my tuition homework, then went for dinner with Emily Goh and Jaron. Okay, quote Emily, weird combi but yeah haha. Curry Wok and then Sogurt! My second time there lol. Then for some reason ended up with some sort of heart to heart talk lol. Okay dunno how it ended up with that topic, but yeah thanks guys for hearing me out. First two to know anything about it from me. It's nice to catch up with people and just sit down causally and just talk random stuff. Jaron and I also talked about some stuff while walking to our bus stops. Really fufilling evening in my opinion (:Today, quite a bit of a mad rush again (how many times has that happened I wonder) Went for physics tuition, which was a bit of a rush through of superposition revision. Brain too slow.. Rushed to Springsfield sec in Tampines for the match. Played with our seniors and some of our own people against some springsfield sec players and one line of Argonauts. The Argonauts are damn good man o.o I think we played like 6 periods of 22 mins each in total lol. Last few periods we changed to the small goalpost though. Tried keeper for one period since Joshua had to go. Okay lah, not too bad. Let in 3 goals only haha. Managed to score about 4 goals or so too (: Final score was err 25-21 I think lol. Took damn long to get the feel lah, couldn't play properly for a while. And crap I just saw the crack in my hole blade that Jun Xiang was telling me about. Sian ): Rushed back to Bishan for Chem tuition. Grabbed some food from Macs, which was my lunch since I didn't manage to eat. That was like 6:20pm lol.. Record, 2.5 hours of chem lol. Dinner at subway with Jon.
Some things just mean more to people than others. What might be nothing to one might mean the world to another? I guess I'm a little weird in the sense that there are many things to mean more than just it's face value to me. Yeah some people would probably think I'm just damn retarded and being some idiot who gets all sentimental and stuff over silly things. Get that all the time, especially from someone. It can just be simple stuff. A message, a small but special gift, a card, an action, even just talking and asking about how stuff is. Hey, whether they know it or not, these little things from these people mean the world to me. To you, must keep you put down everything I say? Talking to you is kinda difficult sometimes cause all I get is either a cold response or a crude remark, sometimes even condescending ones. And it doesn't help at all, especially under situations where I'm already demoralised. Thanks ah. And I realised JZ and I have similar sad stories for our current situation. Can share your sentiments ): My occlumency doesn't really work sometimes. Seeing stuff, it just well makes you sad. And everything meant so much to me ): I'm still trying to make sense of it all, some pieces of information seem to be missing, cause well the pieces I have don't really fit the puzzle. Sian ): Jon and I had some pretty interesting talk over dinner. Just well sharing of stuff here and there. Meaningful talks. Hope Eugene's doing okay in Tekong lol. I think it'll be cool to learn the electric guitar and the drums. It's quite cool to like try to follow the beats and stuff. Helps lighten my mood a bit
Took a detour while walking home today. Nice to walk in the serene night and well to clear my thoughts again. Heard this song again, dunno if it's cause I'm overthinking stuff, but saw this song with a different meaning just now, the lyrics just struck me differently, given the current situation and stuff, okay maybe some parts. The first song that got me started with this awesome band. And in case you were wondering, it is NOT in anyway satanic whatsoever.. And I'm not like addicted to hardcore metal stuff either lol. The Rev's the best and the solo still awes me man
Afterlife -- Avenged Sevenfold
Like walking into a dream
So unlike what you've seen
So unsure but it seems
'Cause we've been waiting for you
Fallen into this place
Just giving you a small taste
Of your afterlife here so stay
You'll be back here soon anyway
I see a distant light
But girl, this can't be right
Such a surreal place to see
So how did this come to be, arrived too early?
And when I think of all the places
I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life
And realize this is going too far
I don't belong here, we gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here
A place of hope and no pain
Perfect skies with no rain
Can leave this place but refrain
'Cause we've been waiting for you
Fallen into this place
Just giving you a small taste
Of your afterlife here so stay
You'll be back here soon anyway
This peace on earth's not right(With my back against the wall)
No pain or sign of time(I'm much too young to fall)
So out of place don't wanna stay
I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind
Give me your hand
But realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave
And carry on my own life
I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here
Got nothing against you
And surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light
And I'd hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right
Loved ones back home all crying
'Cause they're already missing me
I pray by the grace of God
That there's somebody listening
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be (I am unbroken, I'm choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord, I'll try so hard but You gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)
I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear
Escape from this afterlife
Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here
Got nothing against you
And surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light
And I'd hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right
mentally challenged @ 11:48 PM
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