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In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream, it's like a million little stars spelling out your name

Okay, GC had nothing to do so we had Econs early, which ended early and we had an extended break! First time man lol. 1.5 hour Physics tutorial. Had the planning question which was quite okay. Managed to finish it in the time limit o.o Didn't know enough to do the paper 2 though, nuts. Did work in the library, then went to run the 4x400m house relay. Last minute some people couldn't make it I think so just went to fill in with You'en. First thing when I got the baton and started running my thighs started hurting like crap wth -.- Luckily it didn't cramp up halfway while running. Besides the aching muscles, had a pressure problem in my ears zzzz.. I thought it usually occurred when I was dehydrated but I wasn't during that situation. Dunno why also. Got a bit dizzy and stuff ._. Couldn't go home initially cause of the rain, so went to see the practice for the floorballholic pub stunt by the juniors. Hope it goes well tomorrow! Waves and oscillations lecture test tomorrow!

Can tell that some people have given up on me. Just by the way they act or respond. I think my civics/econs tutor might have given up on me :/ I wonder who else has done so too. But well what can I say? I kinda brought it upon myself right? Sucks to have that feeling. Kept having that feeling of 'I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die' (not literally of course). Pressure keeps coming in from myself. Some voice in my head keeps telling me it's too late. I really don't want my nightmare to come true ): Stupid. I think I'm quite weak for a guy. My dad made some comment this morning on the way to school. Shan't bother to type it out. But it was enough to make me almost cry, not because I was sad or something, but his words kinda touched me quite a bit. In the evening, received a very random but caring message from a friend. Don't really talk to that person like everyday and stuff. But yeah, thanks so much for the thought. Pretty simple of asking me to take care and stuff cause of the run. It's nice to know that some people still care and also still believe in you, even though many don't. Now the greatest problem is for me to believe in myself for this journey

Side note, I love 09SH25's infectious mood. Most of the guys are mainly one big bunch. Sounding the horn and doing work together. All sorts of funny jokes and who knows what coming out from somewhere or another haha. It really helps to bring my mood up sometimes (:

Discovered this song yesterday. Think I'm addicted to it now. Really like the tune of the song. For such a mood now, quieter, yet a bit err well lively. It even sounds quite cheerful. I like the lyrics too. One of my favourite songs at the moment (:

Untouchable -- Taylor Swift


Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you
Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven
It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven
I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

But your untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone
In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, come on

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven
And in the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, oh, oh, oh

Like a million little stars spelling out your name
They're spelling out your name, oh

mentally challenged @ 8:55 PM