Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond
Monday, January 31, 2011
Okay, shall update! Since someone said I 'abandoned' my blog haha. So Friday morning, went kayaking at Macritchie resevoir with Joshua, Edmund, Rayson, Jeremy, Lionel, Wei Jian, Gabriel and Jian Zhong. When we went into the water it started raining -.- No lightning alert so we just carried on. We tried going all the way to the canoeists' starting point. The race track is really damn long man. Then the rain got heavier so it made kayaking a little difficult. Epic scenes of JZ and a few others self-capsizing and playing around LOL. Lunch at Prata House where we had the mighty murtabak again! :D
Went down to CHS for NP, really the last time in full u for quite a while. Think I spent most of time with the Sec 3s doing arms drill. Taught arms drill a few times before and it always drained a lot out of me, in terms of having to explain stuff and practise with those learning it. Funny enough, it's one of my favourite type of drills to execute haha. So helped 33rd batch out with their squad leaders. By the end of the session, I daresay they've improved quite a bit, and we managed to accomplish a fair amount of work. SI interviews were held in CHS, saw Mr Goh, and Jawl as well. Hope that it'll be good news for the nominees! Anyway, the last bits of the session, I probably saw some of the better executed drills in the unit, something that I've not really seen for some time (or forgot lol). Hope getting all of them to shout the timing helped them! Before I left, as funny as it sounds, I felt that familiar rush that hey, there's another good reason to continue on and help out. Alas, it has to be on my last training that I experience this feeling. In a way, I regret not being able to see the batch that came in when I came back as a CI 'grow up' properly into NCOs, like I did with say 30th or 31st. If any of them from 33rd reads this, hope that they'll strive for greater heights as a squad! As for 32nd batch, finish your job well and make sure the unit is in a stable condition before you step down! Hopefully I'll get to go back and help them again. Re-inspiration (:
Went down to Marina Square for dinner with Joanne and Kimberly after training, where we ate at Manhattan Fish Market. Some people tried to jack me with 'ice lemon tea', which has gas bubbles in it lol. Then again it was just coke light with sprite lol. Was supposed to go for ice cream at Ben & Jerry's but there was time constraint plus the limit of stomach capacity haha. So I guess I'll have to push back the treat I owe again haha. Great evening out. Went home before going to Eugene Sim's house for the stayover. Usual stuff of crapping, owning Eugene and Halo. And this time, everyone knocked out almost together haha. Woke up in the morning and headed to RP with Wai Yinn and Kim. Dunno why a lot of people went back. Met Karen, Adrian, Kay Wee, Jia Wei, Su Kiat and another senior, in addition to the usual people. Like wow. Had the match against TJ in the afternoon.. Burned out on the train and just slept for almost the entire journey to City Hall. Eugene, Yong Le and I went for the NTU talks there, though we only made it in time for the last session lol. Bumped into quite a number of familiar people. Dinner with family at some restaurant in Orchard. Slept outside the place on the chair while waiting for them lol. Today was nothing much, most significant is probably the reunion lunch at my maternal grandma's house
So to sum up saturday's afternoon: Dejavu. Like wth. Just like last year, similar opponents, though playing with a different team, band on the left arm again. And as mentioned, the result was the same, lost 4-1. I was kinda nervous/hyped up to really wanna beat them this time to make up for last year. Yet, both things that happened last year occurred again. I failed to perform as a player again. And I missed a goal again wtf. My turn drag from hit-in variation 1 hit the post D: Disappointment would definitely be the best term to describe what I'm thinking. And the worst part is that it still bugs me. Sorry guys. K asked me whether I was playing under pressure again. Was I? I dunno, self-inflicted perhaps. Especially since we had support from some friends, I guess I really wanted to make it a win. My level of play sucks. Guess we really need to level up and push it more. Like coach said, for us we can't take 15 mins to warm up anymore. It's Shikai and then bankai from the start. More formidable opponents next week, last match before going in too
Side note, it's been raining continuously for almost the past 2 days already. Gosh
Was thinking about this for some time. Watched this movie on the plane on the way to Hong Kong from Singapore during the holidays. Going The Distance was released last year, starring Justin Long and Drew Barrymore. So basically the story is about how this man and woman meet in some bar in New York, start going out and end up becoming a couple. Erin (played by Barrymore) was still studying and lived in another state of the US. They have a long distance relationship and the movie shows how they go about the process and some problems they start to have here and there.
In a way the fundamentals of the movie made me wonder about lond distance relationships. Well, bringing it down to our own age group first, the longest distance a guy and a girl could be having would be that he stays at one end of Singapore and she stays at the other end. As students that might be a problem but I guess once we go into the working world then little things like these don't matter. However, let's say like within the couple, one of them wishes to study overseas? Or is forced to have move? I have a few friends who seem to be in a situation like this. Simply put, what's gonna happen to the relationship? Well, if both parties are agreeable, the straightforward answer might perhaps be keeping in touch as much as possible? I'm sure there are many cases happening right now for this. The fundamental question would be this, how would one react if presented with such a situation? An extension of it would be a married couple, with say the husband being posted overseas to work. Though for this case the answer might be much more clearcut for some. My own parents went through this too, hence my early childhood days of living in London and Taiwan before returning back to SG. I heard my Sec 4 chinese teacher also relocated for a bit with her husband, probably only coming back in a few years. So there you have it. Of course, circumstances vary across different people so the outcome might be different. Perhaps if one day I should be faced with these situations (more so of the studying seperately scenario I guess), how would/should I react? I guess when (if) the time comes, then I'll have to think about it.
Just food for thought I guess, I just hope that it didn't sound too pathetically childish, since people my age are supposed to be more 'mature' in their thinking (which I seem unable to follow at times). I was pretty amazed at the depth that people go into for a certain topic we kinda discussed about during the stayover. I guess I still have a lot to learn. At the same time, you do wish you could be more helpful to people sometimes. I realise my abilities are really inadequate for anything in society at this point of time. I really doubt anything I do nowadays, self esteem problem perhaps. Nonetheless, as they say, upgrade. The absence of schooling seems to have made me have the lack of 'doing' things, and I seem to be a little unwilling to do much :/
Okay it's going to be pretty packed with some things for the next few days. On a very random side note, I seem to miss drills a little again. Oh well...
I can't really remember if I posted this before, but it never fails to capture my attention. For those that can appreciate classical music still, I think this performance is brilliant. Humour present, yet it makes classical music really interesting
We Will Survive: Igudesman & Joo + Kremer & Kremerata
Had a class dinner with 25 people at Just Acia. Before that went to CHS while waiting for JZ to dye his hair lol. Didn't realise they had shooting training so crashed a bit. Shooting still sucks lol. The rain was EPICLY heavy wah lau. The original plan was to go to NJ to run with YE and ZX, no prizes for guessing what caused the change in plans. Ended up at 313 with PY and JZ who were looking for stuff they wanted to buy. Dinner the usual talk cock, 9 of the guys and the iphone gang. Then Lan-ed with WJ, JP, JZ, PY and ZX. I still hopelessly suck at Dota man ._. So that same lot came over to stay. Went out for our mega lunch at Northpoint, had the Shabu Shabu Jap buffet thingy. Damn awesome stuff. Ate from likw 2 plus all the way till 5 haha. Don't need to eat dinner liao seriously. Stuff to look forward to for tomorrow, kayaking at Macritchie! Followed by NP and dinner! (: Hope the weather will be cooperative!
Crappy thing still, my thigh muscles are still aching from Monday ._. Having a hard time walking around sia.. Anyway, Saturday is drawing closer.. OMG
Without malice, at least most of the world that I'm in now has this. Who knows in the near future?
Fear is that little darkroom where negatives are developed - Michael Pritchard
I count him braver who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies, for the hardest victory is over self - Aristotle
The analogy of the mahjong tiles? Consider, think, but taken
It's been all this time and I can't get you off my mind. If you're happy I'll get through somehow, but the truth is I'm not that strong
Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine. ~Anthony J. D'Angelo, The College Blue Book
Life is a shipwreck but we must not forget to sing in the lifeboats. ~Voltaire
All We'd Ever Need -- Lady Antebellum
Boy it's been all this time And I can't get you off my mind And nobody knows it but me
I stare at your photograph Still sleep in the shirt you left And nobody knows it but me
Everyday I wipe my tears away So many nights I've prayed for you to say
I should've been chasing you I should've been trying to prove That you were all that mattered to me I should've said all the things that I kept inside of me And maybe I could've made you believe That what we had was all we'd ever need
My friends think I'm moving on But the truth is I'm not that strong And nobody knows it but me
And I've kept all the words you said In a box underneath my bed And nobody knows it but me
But if you're happy I'll get through somehow But the truth is that I've been screaming out
I should've been chasing you I should've been trying to prove That you were all that mattered to me I should've said all the things that I kept inside of me And maybe I could've made you believe That what we had was all we'd ever need
I should've been chasing you You should've been trying to prove That you were all that mattered to me Oh you should've said all the things That I kept inside of me And maybe you could've made me believe That what we had girl Oh that what we had, what we had It was all we'd ever need It was all we'd ever need
Went back to the course to play after like 2 years of being inactive in golf. Got caught in the rain. My lower body's been aching like crap since the whole day, hard to walk around and stuff lol. Okay nothing much. Blank mind ._.
Wouldn't it be nice, if your dreams came true, even if it's just once?
I tried, I really tried, but Newton's Third Law applies too, as with the workings of the world
My heart melted to the ground, found something true. And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy
Okay time really flies. Last Wednesday, went down to subordinate courts for CDR with a mentor. Had to take a few notes during the process but the people spoke so quickly that I couldn't really follow lol. After that met some of the 28 people for dinner at AMK S11. The usual talk cock/chit chat. Then went to Macs to watch a replay of some soccer match. Ended off with a bit of pool. Thursday and Friday weren't much, went to do discovery again and a few other things. Met Kim for dinner at Toa Payoh area. Had a nice chat for who knows how long about all sorts of stuff haha. Saturday woke up late for training ._. Couldn't play for nuts man zzz. Joined the class guys at Sentosa after that. Didn't manage to get much of a tan cause I went too late. Dinner and back to the rooftop of Vivo for chit chat. Sunday just went to Eugene's house to play lol
Went back for training with the juniors today, ran 7 rounds with JX and You'en in NJ. Added on 1 set of suicides and lunges before the actual thing. Cui-ed like crazy man ._. At the very least today proved that I'm probably well enough to be able to start my training to regain some of my fitness (: Not that affected by my sickness as much. My resolve for the week! Wanna start some reading for other things too, inspired by Mr Lek
So my attachment ended, besides the painful part of not getting any pay for doing work (not that I did that much either lol) I guess it's been a pretty interesting experience these two weeks. Got to know a bit more about the job of a lawyer, or at least a litigation lawyer. Personally I was a little intimidated by the paperwork that comes along with the job, plus the stress that some of them seem to have to go through. But well I guess like they say, no job is going to pay you to relax and enjoy man. Perhaps I'll consider this as a future career, meanwhile the first barrier that has to be overcome is of course results..... This itself is another major issue, for all I'm sure. I've had a few nightmares regarding A's recently. The most retarded one being handing up a blank OAS sheet for Physics paper 1, with me going in late for the paper and Lionel telling me the answer for the first 9 questions lol. Oh well, this will be brought up closer to March I guess
So some of the fixtures for Div 4 are out. I know that's not the official name but for easy personal reference I guess I'll still call it that lol. First match this Saturday is against TJ, and next sat is against MJ. Starting to have a really bad mental barrier for these two matches, like I always do before important matches. The problem here is that these two matches were particularly impactful for myself, in the sense that I screwed up pretty badly for them. TJ was our first match back in Nats last year, we lost 5-0. I missed a penalty, along with missing like 2 or 3 opportunities that should have been goals. Lost to MJ 8-2 back then, though I didn't screw up that badly, MJ is still well known for really good players and play and stuff. So I guess it's gonna be a really tough fight. Got reminded of this: Most important here in the matches is just to put my 100% and play the match. Have fun in short, without regrets. Funny how I used to be the one telling people this during Nats last year. Guess I had to be reminded of it too. Hopefully Sat will be okay. Thanks (:
Okay think I better go and sleep soon. My lower body is aching a lot from training just now. And talk about suay, got injured a few times today from random incidents zzz
Our mind is really funny sometimes. It's probably extremely difficult or seemingly impossible, but our mind chooses to be funny and tries to create the most impossible but wonderful possibilties, simply put a fantasy scenario. Good or bad I dunno. Maybe it's just me
15 days
Bleeding Love -- Leona Lewis
Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain Time starts to pass before you know it you're frozen
But something happened for the very first time with you My heart melted to the ground, found something true And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling
But nothing's greater than the rush That comes with your embrace And in this world of loneliness I see your face Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy Maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love You cut me open
And it's draining all of me Oh, they find it hard to believe I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see
I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor. And I wonder if I ever cross your mind, cause for me it happens all the time
I can taste my food again! Okay at least the aches and most of the fever's gone, left mainly the blocked nose. Not that bad today. Met a few new interns today, all older than me sia, save for one guy, who's my age too. Somehow I'm like the youngest intern but had the most things to do today lol. Oh and I think my illness dulled my senses quite a bit, freaking stoned today, especially during chit-chat conversations with people zzzz
Something that I came across while helping to type an affidavit for one of the partners today. Got to know the background of the case. This woman apparently walked out on her marriage with her husband and went with her boss, leaving behind two kids as well, like literally walked out of the house one day (of course there was probably some drama prior to the day itself). And wthell was my first reaction. In the later part I discovered that despite her being ordered by the court previously to fufill some duties as a mother, she didn't follow them exactly. In short she wanted to have 'play time' with the kids but didn't want to shoulder the 'responsibilities' that came with them, like fetching them from school or something. I dunno, the way it was done simply shocked me. Initially I was feeling sad while typing, even sympathetic that it was another divorce case. Then came the background info. Wtf.. The kids are gonna grow up with an emotional scar man. But on the whole, this example, along with the other one while helping this partner, the stories that I hear in the real world seem to intimidate me a little. What if this happens to me? From the little that I've learned in these few days at Rodyk, such things take damn long. No matter what the issue might be, adultery, problems or whatsoever, isn't it sad to see people who had formerly taken 'I do' and 'till death do us apart' oaths end up going at each other's throats for the division of matrimonial assets? That includes the custody of the children too, if it applies. Similar thing happened to Jon, 2 years of resolving definitely was long, but luckily he still has support from both his parents physically and mentally. Others aren't as lucky perhaps. I dunno, such incidents just scare me about the real world a bit, cause I honestly don't want to end up going through something similar, or end up causing anyone to suffer long term by my hands in anyway. As much as the first case is an extreme, similar ones might occur. This leads to an important question, what if?
Time flies, it's been two whole years since. At this time then, things were still happy. Funny how guilt from 2 years previously manages to keep catching up with you, as stupid as it might sound. Of course there isn't any question on where the fault lies in that sense, I'm pretty much grateful for how some things are, they could have been worse. Much as I have learned much over this time, am I any more ready now than I was then? Back to the question, what if?
Random note, JZ and I seem to have pretty similar experiences, though undeniably whatever happened to me pales in comparison to his. Nonetheless, at least there's someone to talk to about similar thinkings at times. Whatever.. Once again, what if?
Pride in your work. Over the years I guess many of us would have been reminded of this at least once. I think everywhere I went this thing got drilled into me. Nonetheless we all have to acknowledge that it is a very important attritube to have. No matter what task we're give, do it with the best of your ability. Even if you are juggling many other things, at least give it due consideration, cause that can be your best at that given point of time. I guess pride in one's work can be easily seen in the quality of their assignments. A slip-shot job or a certain level of consideration, I guess those experienced in the respective fields would be able to pick these up really easily. This goes hand in hand with effort I guess. We might complain about it, thinking it's stupid or something, at least do it properly. Points to ponder
Got a call from Panyu just now, who was apparently half drunk or something haha. They were having a stayover at Zhong Xi's place, so it was pretty entertaining to hear the stuff PY was spouting to all of us at both ends of the line haha
Dinner with 28 gang tmrw! (:
PS: It's 21 days to enlistment
This song has successfully moved me, love the tune! Thanks Joanne for the songs (:
Need You Now -- Lady Antebellum
Picture perfect memories Scattered all around the floor Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I Ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone And I need you now Said I wouldn't call But I've lost all control And I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now
Another shot of whiskey Can't stop looking at the door Wishing you'd come sweeping In the way you did before
And I wonder if I Ever cross your mind For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one I'm a little drunk And I need you now Said I wouldn't call But I've lost all control And I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now
Whoa, whoa Guess I'd rather hurt Than feel nothing at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone And I need you now And I said I wouldn't call But I'm a little drunk And I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now I just need you now
Fell ill today :/ Woke up with this really horrible feeling. Had a mix of fever and body aches and stuff. I have a feeling I nearly had a bout of dehydration or something as well zzz. Didn't go to work and practically just stoned at home the whole day, playing pokemon along the way. Yeah, pretty stoned day doing nothing, unless you count sleeping
I'm pretty amazed at the number (and kind) of possessions I have. Mum was packing all the things that were apparently mostly mine. I guess a lot of the things there were part of a life that I had already left behind, just like a whole lot of other things. Wouldn't it be nice though, to have another enjoyable pokemon card match again?
I don't know whether it's part of the rather depressing mood I've been having lately, or is it just today. I feel damn useless and wish I could do something interesting/productive/meaningful in my life. Once again, another comparison with school life perhaps.. Don't like this empty feeling ._. I really need look more into choices for university courses and scholarship applications (if I really intend to apply)
Though now it's a neutral stand, one day I'll definitely have to make that important choice. The question is, when will I be ready, or brave enough to do so?
One of my favourite pieces to play on the piano (which reminds me I haven't done so for some time)
My Memory -- Ryu
I should get some sleep (again). And I want to play Floorball!
Quite an interesting day today. Last minute had a bowling outing with Jon, Eugene and Wai Yinn at SCC. Sian still can't match up to Jonny haha. Dinner at J8 after that, Pastmania and I went crazy and ordered a chunk of stuff apparently. Watched 'The Ghosts Must Be Crazy' with Jon after that. First part was really damn funny, couldn't stop laughing haha. However the second component wasn't that entertaining I feel. Got a problem of not feeling well at the moment. Slight sore throat plus runny nose and stuff. Sian -.- Not sure whether to hope I can recover by tomorrow morning or not lol. See how it goes I guess
Some food for thought: Do our manners and ettiquettes deteriorate with time? Some of the little things we learn about manners, being nice and courteous to people. In the adult world, somehow some things seem to become less significant. Sometimes the people who taught us these things are funnily enough the ones who showed this to me too. On other things, it's quite scary/sad how people react to certain things, say in anger or jealousy. The process where even a married couple with kids gets divorced, then they have a legal fight for property, their kids etc.. Somehow I'm a little afraid of the outside world :/ Of course once something gets personal things are also brought to a whole new level. The way people can fight to defend something, or to get something. It's just scary. Quote something from To Kill A Mockingbird, (forgot the exact quote) 'the simple hell that people like to give others...'
Also, I think it's kinda sad that I'll be going to NS without being able to see some people, close friends, classmates, not-so close friends, whatever.. Well we did try for some. Perhaps fate will decide for this. Some day, some time. Side note, congratulations to my seniors who just got commissioned as officers last Saturday!
When we learn how to fly, we forget how to walk. When we learn how to sing, we don't wanna hear each other talk
Found a few more songs by Train. Really nice lyrics that they have for their songs (: Pretty sad meanings, but they do make you ponder about it
The Finish Line -- Train
I thought I knew it all I've been through the highs, said all my goodbyes Learned to run before I learned to crawl It's not worth fighting for if one of us is sure And one of us is dying, trying to find loves cure
I have waited all my life to paint these cities red Thoughts I've always had here are stuck inside my head It's not worth waiting for if one of us wants more And one of us is dying, trying to find love's door
When we learn how to fly We forget how to walk When we learn how to sing We don't wanna hear each other talk
Here we are at the finish line, ah Here we are at the finish line
And you, you really thought you knew Everything to do With holding onto me and holding on This time is making me slip right through your hands And now you don't understand Trying to find love all yourself
When we learn how to fly, We forget how to walk When we learn how to sing We don't wanna hear each other talk When we know what we want We forget what we need When you find who you are You forget about me
Here we are at the finish line, ah Here we are at the finish line, ah Here we are at the finish line
Okay, so Friday went back to CHS for NP, probably my last time in full u lol, went for KCP's campfire in the end with SM, Yh and ZQ. Their orientation programme for the Sec 1s is seriously damn interesting! Saturday had training at CHS, ran 2.4km before it started and wth my timing dropped like siao, 11:40 now, SIAN! Training wise we just died, not used to the pace and intensity. We got owned by the combined schools' line lol. Lunch-ed, then we went to Fatpipe, SK changed his blade, I adjusted my new one. Can't get back the same feel yet leh :/ Sunday met Eugene and Jon, talked cock a bit at his house then went for Zheng Yang's birthday party at Aloha. Damn fun for the games we played, especially the part where he had to find his presents in the room (:
Monday went back to NJ to visit the floorballers, waited freaking long for 852 -.- At least can finally take 852 back home from NJ lol... Tuesday, went out for dinner with Mili then had a talk with JZ before going home. Wednesday met Lao Da, Joseph, Zheng Yang, Pris, Wen Qi and Joe to celebrate Priscilla's birthday. Had chicken rice and then scoopz for dessert. Went siao and had 3 plates of rice haha. Thursday had dinner with Jon and got my NS specs. Look kinda retarded :/ Friday met up with the 4A peeps. Siyun, Zhao Ming, Michelle, Melissa, Melvin, Jocelyn and Shian. Clarence joined us impromptu as well haha. Great to meet up and talk a bit (: Next plan is some Ubin outing plus clubbing? LOL!
At the same time, I started my attachment at this law firm called Rodyk and Davidson this week. Have to thank my dad since he knows one of the partners there. It's been a pretty interesting week, no doubt boring initially since I can't do much as an A level graduate. Sad thing is that I don't get paid for my office hours ._. Thus, it's kinda painful to travel everyday with adult fare and have your lunch at CBD (omg) I'm in the Litigation department for Rodyk and my mentors are really nice people. Currently helping another mentor out for this thing called discovery, damn tedious process of going through docs. JOL is another interesting concept, Judge online I think. So instead of having to go down to court just to present some things for the CDR, you can do it online, much more efficient in certain cases I think. Maybe next week will be able to see an actual court session!
Was having a short discussion with my mentor Mr Lek about looking for a job that interests us. He said a few things that made really proper sense. In the past, people mostly stuck to a few jobs, if not just one for their working career. Nowadays, people have more choices, thus we tend to become a little picky for our jobs (some people at least, not all). Mr Lek told me that in some senses, it'll be quite hard to determine what kind of job you'll really like, especially at say 18 or 19 years old, since that we're gonna have to decide our uni courses soon. One possible way is to perhaps try to find something enjoyable about what you do? I was lucky that I managed to really love the CCAs that I had joined in Secondary school and JC, and in certain senses I didn't entirely know what I was doing when I joined them. Hopefully I can learn to love what I do in future too. Points to ponder
A little issue that pestered me a bit, inspired by Shian's post on work. This week itself told me a lot on how with work, our social life starts to become zilch. Already it's quite hard to keep in contact of meet up with friends and stuff, due to our clashing schedules of work. I guess for now it might not be that bad, but once we actually start working to support our families, what will it be like? I guess it's something I'm really gonna dread. I really miss school life now ):
Side note, my internet is finally more stable now with the router set up here. My email has decided to work properly again too! I'm gonna try and make this blog more lively with more posts and stuff now. Also, decided to play pokemon again on the gameboy advance sp, nothing better to do so restarted one of the versions lol
Just discovered this band called Train, their songs are pretty nice (: Shall share them another time!
Are distance and time really the solutions? As much as I hate it, it's already happening
It's hard to feel anything, with a mind and heart in this state. Apathy, or is it just simply fear of making choices and bearing the consequences again?
Fate has it. Maybe it's really time for me to move on, move on from the things where I placed my heart in, cause I might no longer be able to contribute what I thought I could. I might never have been able to do so in the first place
Angst, clear it all, please.. Useless piece of crap
Fate twisted it around, but time and space tore it apart, bit by bit..
PS, I need my email to freaking work properly, kns..
Okay, I shall finally update this place. Been pretty busy running around doing stuff. So yeah, the trip to Taiwan was pretty good overall, some stuff happened on the last night which wasn't so pleasant. Guess I shall try not to dig up unhappy memories... Came back, went for Annual Hike the next day. No comments for it, just hope I wasn't babbling rubbish again at the last bit. Went for BPS campfire, damn interesting setup! On the 31st, went to Leonard's house for the stayover/countdown. And so we welcomed 2011 with random talk cock, mahjong and a PS3 haha. Mahjong-ed the whole night, damn fun haha. Lost a lot then won back almost everything. Heng ahhh. Morning we went to eat, then end up went back to Leonard's house to talk cock haha. Yibin, Leo, Ken, Jason and myself. Had a very long chat about relationships stuff, gotta admire someone's style, last long man (: After that we watched Shutter Island on the PS3, one damn zai movie that totally screwed our minds up, similar to Inception haha. Awesome show! Then on Saturday evening, also New Year's day, went to Eugene's house to stay this time. Jon, Eugene, Wai Yinn, Boon Siang and joined by Leon. Mahjong-ed a bit again, played some random games here and there after the barbeque. Lunched with them (a bit) then met Jaron and Wei Jian who came over to discuss chalet stuff. Ended with dinner at S11 with Joshua Tan, You'en, Wei Jian and Gabriel.
Had the 09SH25/27 chalet from 2nd to 4th Jan. Had quite a bit of trouble during the planning stage on Sunday cause of some reasons. Oh well whatever then, they're your choices, I can't say I've not tried right? Pretty disappointed though, I have to say. Okay whatever screw this. Checked in to NSRCC with Jacob and gang. The bungalows are really nice! Awesome design and stuff. Still have mahjong table, cable tv, dvd player and stuff. Played a bit of Mahjong then some drinking game set up by Wei Jian haha. Got a bit kranky at one point cause of the vodka lol (of course got mix with stuff lah) Had the barbeque. The arrival of the two Mr Tans was pretty funny cause ZX was looking at some other people behind them but didn't notice their presence. It was funny in context haha. Mr Yew and Mr Chong came as well, though Mr Chong had to leave early. Damn fun talking to them and stuff. Even got drinking game again man haha. At night, Xbox360, cards, mahjong and more random shit. Jian Zhong and Panyu got DAMN high, all crazy liao haha. Next morning, went to Tampines for lunch and to get supplies. Went back for basketball, play until damn shuang haha. Played bowling too. Dinner was ordered-in Pizza. SH27 was damn suay cause it started raining and their bbq got affected quite badly. Rest of the evening was spent watching more Stephen Chow movies, and then another round of drinking game to clear the excess drinks haha. Got damn tired/dunno what halfway then cui diao. Morning, went to Dhoby for lunch with Nigel, Panyu, Lionel and Joshua. Panyu left then the rest of us went back to NJ to watch the full dress for walk-in. Came home and cui-ed lol
Overall chalet was really damn fun. Great company (: Thanks guys for making this chalet real awesome, despite those having to run around and head out during the day for stuff. Looking forward to the one during our block leave after BMT for SH28 guys! :D
My mind's a little clogged up with thoughts, like since the trip. Haven't had the chance to blog to clear my head. Hopefully this sian feeling can clear soon.. Reflection post shall come soon (No, not the mirror and the envelope, Kim -_-''')
Kinda forgot the feeling, but it should be nice if done properly right? Side note, haven't had one like that for some time, felt a little happier cause of the virtual company (:
