Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond

My heart melted to the ground, found something true. And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

Okay time really flies. Last Wednesday, went down to subordinate courts for CDR with a mentor. Had to take a few notes during the process but the people spoke so quickly that I couldn't really follow lol. After that met some of the 28 people for dinner at AMK S11. The usual talk cock/chit chat. Then went to Macs to watch a replay of some soccer match. Ended off with a bit of pool. Thursday and Friday weren't much, went to do discovery again and a few other things. Met Kim for dinner at Toa Payoh area. Had a nice chat for who knows how long about all sorts of stuff haha. Saturday woke up late for training ._. Couldn't play for nuts man zzz. Joined the class guys at Sentosa after that. Didn't manage to get much of a tan cause I went too late. Dinner and back to the rooftop of Vivo for chit chat. Sunday just went to Eugene's house to play lol

Went back for training with the juniors today, ran 7 rounds with JX and You'en in NJ. Added on 1 set of suicides and lunges before the actual thing. Cui-ed like crazy man ._. At the very least today proved that I'm probably well enough to be able to start my training to regain some of my fitness (: Not that affected by my sickness as much. My resolve for the week! Wanna start some reading for other things too, inspired by Mr Lek

So my attachment ended, besides the painful part of not getting any pay for doing work (not that I did that much either lol) I guess it's been a pretty interesting experience these two weeks. Got to know a bit more about the job of a lawyer, or at least a litigation lawyer. Personally I was a little intimidated by the paperwork that comes along with the job, plus the stress that some of them seem to have to go through. But well I guess like they say, no job is going to pay you to relax and enjoy man. Perhaps I'll consider this as a future career, meanwhile the first barrier that has to be overcome is of course results..... This itself is another major issue, for all I'm sure. I've had a few nightmares regarding A's recently. The most retarded one being handing up a blank OAS sheet for Physics paper 1, with me going in late for the paper and Lionel telling me the answer for the first 9 questions lol. Oh well, this will be brought up closer to March I guess

So some of the fixtures for Div 4 are out. I know that's not the official name but for easy personal reference I guess I'll still call it that lol. First match this Saturday is against TJ, and next sat is against MJ. Starting to have a really bad mental barrier for these two matches, like I always do before important matches. The problem here is that these two matches were particularly impactful for myself, in the sense that I screwed up pretty badly for them. TJ was our first match back in Nats last year, we lost 5-0. I missed a penalty, along with missing like 2 or 3 opportunities that should have been goals. Lost to MJ 8-2 back then, though I didn't screw up that badly, MJ is still well known for really good players and play and stuff. So I guess it's gonna be a really tough fight. Got reminded of this: Most important here in the matches is just to put my 100% and play the match. Have fun in short, without regrets. Funny how I used to be the one telling people this during Nats last year. Guess I had to be reminded of it too. Hopefully Sat will be okay. Thanks (:

Okay think I better go and sleep soon. My lower body is aching a lot from training just now. And talk about suay, got injured a few times today from random incidents zzz

Our mind is really funny sometimes. It's probably extremely difficult or seemingly impossible, but our mind chooses to be funny and tries to create the most impossible but wonderful possibilties, simply put a fantasy scenario. Good or bad I dunno. Maybe it's just me

15 days

Bleeding Love -- Leona Lewis


Closed off from love, I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you're frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found something true
And everyone's looking 'round, thinking I'm going crazy

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing's greater than the rush
That comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy
Maybe, maybe

But I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it's draining all of me
Oh, they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

mentally challenged @ 11:28 PM