Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I would fall asleep, only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before, yet these nights disappear as reality crashes to the floor
Okay, I guess the most significant things for these two days was the viewing of some scripts for most people. For Math, got a C overall, in the end my Paper 1 did better than my Paper 2 -.- Physics got a C too. Chemistry got a D. Well, in general for these 3 subjects I'm glad that there has been an improvement from my pathetic CT scores of SUU respectively. Yeah I'm glad, at the very least there's progress? I know that I still can push my scores to higher levels, seeing that I failed my paper 3 for Chem zz.. Shall work hard! Likely to get GP tomorrow, maybe even Econs perhaps? Quite nervous for these 2 subjects as they are the ones as JP described as "the subjects with the most unpredictable scores". Let's see what we can get out of it I guess? Whatever the case, improvements so far, seek continuous improvement, quote Mrs Chiew. Quite annoyed cause I failed today's mcq test though, that's what you get for not studying zzz...
On the other hand, getting back results definitely isn't all smiles and laughter, especially for an exam like this. Saw a few of my friends getting really really demoralised and depressed cause of the results they got. It wasn't just some of the class guys I usually hang out with, applied to the girls as well. I guess it will be kind of weird for me to walk up to them and say stuff, since for one I don't really talk to them much unfortunately. Whatever the case, though I highly doubt anyone this applies to would read this, we just have to push on. I still remember facing something really similar for CTs, and yeah something struck me just now after the call from Eugene Sim about some stuff he was upset over. When we are not in the situation itself, it's definitely much easier to give advice and comments to help boost the person's morale and stuff, I'm sure most of us have gone through that. Yet when we are actually in the situation itself, a lot of things become different. It becomes so much harder to see what we would have told others going through the exact same thing. As superficial as it might seem, in the sense that our words only help on the surface, I think words of encouragement still do help a lot. This is probably cause the most powerful thing that can keep us from doing anything or doing anything or thinking in any way is simply by being convinced by ourselves. When we hear what people say, we think about what they might have said and evaluate it for ourselves how sensible it sounds, and from there we might be inclined to think in another way.
Quite a bit of things there, no idea if it makes sense. Whatever the case, I think this might help for all of us who haven't done say very well. Yeah you might say that I'm not really one to talk in this case, but now what we have to do is to find our resolve and pump in our all into working for this last stretch. A learning experience is what this is. This might have been another obstacle that trampled on our dreams and stuff, but what can we do about it now? Let's not be brought down to ground zero and dwell there, we simply have to be strong and push on. We're all in this together, we'll make it through somehow. Don't give up the fight!
Side note, had some fire drill exercise. Probably the most interesting thing that happened today I think. And well for some other things, it wasn't exactly out of the norm I guess, but I kind of can't help but feel disappointed for some reason.. Maybe my gut feeling was right? In that case, I might have to finally acknowledge that things have changed.. I've done it for a few weeks, will it make a difference if I continue then?
This is a really awesome band. Soothing tunes and really meaningful lyrics for their songs. Have a few of their songs in my favourites. This is one I discovered quite recently
Blind -- Lifehouse
I was young but I wasn't naive I watched helpless as he turned around to leave And still I have the pain I have to carry A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried After all this time I never thought we'd be here Never thought we'd be here When my love for you was blind But I couldn't make you see it Couldn't make you see it That I loved you more than you'll ever know A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep Only in hopes of dreaming That everything would be like it was before But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor After all this time I never thought we'd be here Never thought we'd be here When my love for you was blind But I couldn't make you see it Couldn't make you see it That I loved you more than you'll ever know A part of me died when I let you go After all this why Would you ever wanna leave it Maybe you could not believe it That my love for you was blind But I couldn't make you see it Couldn't make you see it That I loved you more than you will ever know A part of me died when I let you go That I loved you more than you'll ever know A part of me died when I let you go
My life has been a poor attempt, to imitate the man. Oh I'm just a living legacy, to the leader of the band
Okay Friday was so so. Got back our Chem MCQ papers during lesson. Got 25/40, not fantastic, but it's quite a big achievement for me. Mrs Chiew suanned me until damn funny. She saw my score than she was like 'Wah Bryan Tan you got 25/40! That's a very good score for you! Above class average somemore!' LOL. Got quite a few careless mistakes and a few tyco questions. Nonetheless, it's an improvement! Hopefully my paper 3 won't die so badly then I can scrape a C or something. Lectures were well okay. Couldn't do the Physics questions -.- The break was spent on Monopoly Deal LOL! Did work in the afternoon. Stayed back till like 10 plus with Zikai, haven't talked to that joker for damn long. Jackson and Garry must study hor! Talk so much lol. Saturday, had Chem tuition. Jon kept indirectly suanning me -_- Met Emily, Jing Han, Song Ko and Monica at Everything With Fries at Orchard Central. In the end only Emily and Jing Han were left. Our Honey outing fail haha. Played Monopoly Deal there for a few hours. After that met the guys for dinner. Decided to go to Seoul Garden in the end. Greg, Eugene, Boon Siang, Jon, Leon and Wai Yinn. Had fun cooking and Eugene got jacked again by the drink trick xD Last time also tio at Sakura, poor guy lol. Played a bit of Lan after that. And I think our cooking skills damn fail man, had a really bad stomache at night -.-
Today, kena scammed cause I was told that tuition was at 11am initially but last minute I was told it was at 7pm, when I already reached Bishan -.- Went to Mos at J8 to do some work cause the library was freaking crowded zzz.. Went for lunch with family and Robert, Matthew, Auntie Betty and Uncle Kim at this chicken rice place in Toa Payoh, they were on vacation visiting (: Awesome lunch and dessert. Then went to look at our house that's under renovation. It looks more complete now, can make out how it's going to be like once we move back. Something else to look forward to after A's I guess (: Came home and burned out for some reason, woke up for tuition with a headache -.- Tuition lasted 2.5 hours, a lot of work to do for physics man. Had dinner with Jacob then home.
Damn, wasn't a very productive weekend for me. Shall make the coming week more effective! Though I realise some problems. One I'm always tired (Reason might be quite obvious I think), my brain seems to stall and lag quite a bit and I take some time to register things (Might be linked), and I think my vision's getting worse :/ Sucks. Hopefully it's temporary only. Hope my sleep can be restful in the first place -.- Shouldn't keep dreaming about things related to studies, or stuff that gives me nightmares -.-
I think there's a lot of things I can learn from my Dad. Some stuff happened last week I think when my dad was having a conversation with my neighbour about some of the construction stuff. Background knowledge, I'm not on good terms with those people. Long story. Whatever the case, my dad actually got quite pissed over the phone, which is a very rare thing indeed. In short, I guess there's a lot to learn from him, in terms of character, intellect, situational awareness and handling. And of course, how he really cares for my mum and stuff. Like most couples, they had their rough periods too, back then when I was much younger. Definitely traumatising as a kid. Whatever the case, they've never been better with each other. I guess we all know that caring for the people you love involves willing sacrifices in some ways, even the simplest ones are worth it right? I believe that there's much more about my dad that I've yet to discover. Okay touching a bit on my family stuff. Hope I can be like him one day
On one note, I'm starting to discover a lot of new songs and stuff. Bullet For My Valentine and Lostprophets seem quite good. Starting to like some of their songs. Shall listen to more of them. Need recommendation for bands or singers! And it's pretty interesting how you can combine certain lyrics to find different meanings. Yeah they're just words I know, but it just seems to interesting for some things. It's pretty interesting to express your feelings and thoughts through lyrics too, cause they're probably the best expressions for that current situation too
This song is probably appropriate for stuff mentioned earlier. First heard it in Sec 1 during 'Literary Expressions' class lol. FYI it's supposedly Lit combined with English. Wonderful song (:
Leader Of The Band -- Dan Fogelberg
An only child, alone and wild A cabinet maker's son His hands were meant for different work And his heart was known to none
He left his home and went his lone And solitary way And he gave to me a gift I know I never can repay
A quiet man of music Denied a simpler fate He tried to be a soldier once But his music wouldn't wait
He earned his love through discipline A thundering, velvet hand His gentle means of sculpting souls Took me years to understand
The leader of the band is tired And his eyes are growin' old But his blood runs through my instrument And his song is in my soul
My life has been a poor attempt To imitate the man Oh, I'm just a living legacy To the leader of the band
My brothers' lives were different For they heard another call One went to Chicago And the other to St. Paul
And I'm in Colorado When I'm not in some hotel Living out this life I've chose And come to know so well
I thank you for the music And your stories of the roadI thank you for the freedom When it came my time to go I thank you for your kindness And the times when you got tough And Papa, I don't think I said"I love you" near enough
The leader of the band is tired And his eyes are growin' old But his blood runs through my instrument And his song is in my soul
My life has been a poor attempt To imitate the man Oh, I'm just a living legacy To the leader of the band
Okay, Sunday we went to Jian Zhong's house to study, Monday last paper(s). Paper 1 was damn tough :/ Thought I did okay for planning until I found out I did something wrong with the procedure... Careless mistakes too here and there -.- Freak.. Went to play Lan and pool with class people. Tuesday went for dental, then after that, in short wasted my time walking around waiting for some people who supposedly were watching a movie but ended up playing dota at home -.- Bought 3 shirts from Hang Ten though. Didn't buy shoes as my mum told me to cause all the nice ones were like 100 plus dollars ._. Came home and went for a swim. Burned out and slept for quite a bit. Shows how unfit I am man :/ Wednesday went to Chin's house there to play basketball, then went to You'en's house to slack a bit. Tried his electronic drum set. Not bad, can play a bit of stuff for my first time haha. Dinner at Novena with Joshua and Shian who ended their H3 exams. So 6 people, Shian, Lionel, Joshua, You'en, Chin (does this count as 6 people extra people? Haha) and myself. Expensive chicken rice haha, but not bad the quality! Went to the kopitiam at Velocity and we stoned there after our ice kachang talking cock. Damn funny hahaha. Great company (:
Went to run a bit just now before bathing and studying in school. Only managed to run 5 rounds cause of the lightning alert -.- Did math but knocked out halfway -.- Damn unfit now man D: Okay damn cui now, guess I'll do more of what I wanted to crap about another day. And I think I'm going nuts already. Didn't know how to do the first question of last year's A level Math paper so asked Shian, ended up dreaming about it last night -.- At the library when I knocked out I also ended up dreamin about proving the left and right sides on an equation to be homogenous -.- Siao liao
Reaching, searching for something untouched. Rain in your heart, the tears of snow white sorrow. Seek the hiding amaranth, in a land of daybreak
Nuts, feeling damn stoned for some reason today ._. Guess I'm a little bit tired or something. On the bright side, at least the weird reaction in my stomach seems to be disappearing slowly. Progress man. More Physics tomorrow
Music rocks my life man lol. Hope I can learn the drums or guitar next time! Heard this from Shian's MP3, don't really understand the song yet but the tune is quite nice
Amaranth -- Nightwish
Baptized with a perfect name The doubting one by heart Alone without himself War between him and the day Need someone to blame In the end, little he can do alone
You believe but what you see You receive but what you give Caress the one, the Never Fading Rain in your heart, the tears of snow white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak
Apart from the wandering pack In this brief flight of time we reach For the ones, whoever dare You believe but what you see You receive but what you give
Caress the one, the Never Fading Rain in your heart, the tears of snow white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak
Caress the one, the Never Fading Rain in your heart, the tears of snow white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak
Reaching, searching for something untouched Hearing voices of the Never Fading calling
Caress the one, the Never Fading Rain in your heart, the tears of snow white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak
Caress the one, the Never Fading Rain in your heart, the tears of snow white sorrow Caress the one, the hiding amaranth In a land of the daybreak
So close no matter how far, couldn't be much more from the heart. Forever trust in who we are, no nothing else matters
Okay, mentally drained from today. Math was well, better than paper 1, but I still screwed up zzz... Chem was erm well. Paper 2 was not too bad I think? Except I screwed up my planning big time. Paper 1 was damn crap, no time to finish the paper -.- Sian diao.. After Chem went to Bukit Timah Plaza to eat KFC with the rest of the class people + Chin and Shian. Played pool then came home. Left Physics now..
Had some random memories popping up here and there in these two days. Random thoughts on how things could have been, would have been, might have been, if I had chose different paths. Would I be here what I am? Would I have what I have? Would I still have lost what I lost? Would I have learnt what I learnt from these life lessons? Yeah I know nothing can be changed and we should just move on, but well just thoughts to ponder a bit. I don't really know how else to put this, in any indirect way whatsoever. Just would like to say that I do miss you quite a bit, with this absence, though I know by right I shouldn't be thinking about it, and I know it wouldn't be a mutual thought. Oh well, maybe I'll remove this part soon. Just needed to get it off my head for now.
Got introduced to Metallica a few days ago by Shian. Slowly discovering their songs, though some aren't really my style I think, so far from what I know lol. This one is quite soothing. Tune is quite nice also
Nothing Else Matters -- Metallica
So close no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trust in who we are And nothing else matters
Never opened myself this way Life is ours, we live it our way All these words I don't just say And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you Every day for us something new Open mind for a different view And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do Never cared for what they know But I know
So close no matter how far Couldn't be much more from the heart Forever trust in who we are And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do Never cared for what they know But I know I never opened myself this way Life is ours, we live it our way All these words I don't just say And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you Every day for us something new Open mind for a different view And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they say Never cared for games they play Never cared for what they do Never cared for what they know And I know (yeah!)
We all have emptiness inside, we all have answers to find. But, you can't win this fight!
Screw the reactions in my stomach really. Since last Saturday it's been like that -.- On another note, today was not too bad for me, other than the fact that I didn't have enough time to write a complete enough answer for some stuff, thought it was okay. Should be able to do better than what I got for case study during CTs -.- Let's see what else we can do yeah?
Somewhat got a little inspiration from this. No I won't let them win this fight, not so easily at least
Welcome To The Family -- Avenged Sevenfold
Hey kid, do I have your attention? I know the way you've been livin' Life's so wreckless, tragedy endless Welcome to the family
Hey! There's something missing Only time will alter your vision Never in question, lethal injection Welcome to the family
Not long ago you found the answers were so crystal clear Within a day you find yourself living in constant fear Can you look at yourself now? Can you look at yourself? You can't win this fight!
And in a way it seems there's no one to call When our thoughts are so numb And our feelings unsure We all have emptiness inside We all have answers to find But, you can't win this fight!
Hey, I have to question What's with the violent aggression? Details blurry, lost him too early Welcome to the family
Hey, why won't you listen? Can't help the people you're missing It's been done, a casualty re-run Welcome to the family
I try and help you with the Things that can't be justified I need to warn you that There is no way to rationalize So have you figured it out now? So have you figured it out? You can't win this fight!
And in a way it seems there's no-one to call When our thoughts are so numb And our feelings unsure We all have emptiness inside We all have answers to find But, you can't win this fight!
Gunning for you And all mankind I've lost my mind Psychotic, rabid dementia I won't be fine
I see you're a king who's been dethroned Cast out, in a world you'll never know Stand there, place your weapons by your side It's our war, in the end we'll surely lose But that's all right So have you figured it out now? So have you figured it out?
And, in a way it seems there's no-one to call When our thoughts are so numb And our feelings unsure We all have emptiness inside We all have answers to find But, you can't win this fight!
Deep inside, where nothing's fine I've lost my mind, you're not invited So step aside, I lost my Deep inside, where nothing's fine, I've lost my mind You're not invited, so step aside I lost my..
I guess like they say, miracles only happen once. And that miracle already happened 2 years ago. Right now, the true limits to my abilities are showing very clearly. And I can't seem to go to higher levels no matter how much I try. I freaked out, I couldn't think fast enough. I couldn't think well enough. I'm a disappointment and a failure. I'm sorry that that is all I seem to be capable of. My entire JC life seems to be an utter failure up to this stage. Everything single thing has gone wrong. Effort just doesn't seem to be proportional to results
It's already at this stage and all I'm getting is getting thrown back to ground zero again. Would they not stop till they see me actually break into many pieces? I'm not ready, but time isn't a luxury. I would exchange anything just to get the mental capabilities I had 2 years ago. Cause I really have nothing left, not even confidence. I've lost it all
I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time, so please stay for a while. A melody, a memory, or just one picture
Wei Shian, Jian Zhong, Joshua and Lionel came over to study today. We went to the reading room downstairs to do work. Did Chem for like the whole day. Took damn long for one paper -.- Went to somewhere at Queenstown there to have lunch, from Jian Zhong's suggestion. The food there not bad. There was this fishball soup that was damn nice that we went to request for more soup lol. Jaron joined us in the afternoon. Quite productive in a certain sense, though could have done more once again lol. Played a bit of squash and table tennis before we went for dinner at Adam food centre. Had a lot of epic moments today with JZ as one of the main jokers haha. Then we re-enacted this damn funny youtube vid about msn convos, damn retarded. Awesome studying company (: Like I told Jaron, I think our two classes are probably the only ones in the level who have such a cool mixture and collaboration haha
My mind's blank, filled up with nothing but all the stuff I've been supposedly learning -.- Sian no time to chiong everything man.. Having a hard time balancing Chem and Math together.. Let's see what we can do yeah
Somewhere in the back of that complex being. It's there, the memories, the distant past. Pictures and some memories, will have to help me through, oh yeah. Maybe if moving has taken place, I should too. Who knows, who else cares? Not now, but an everlasting battle in this timeframe. Never in question, cause it's out of the norm. Convention doesn't follow, unless we're very much mistaken
Plan for tomorrow. Meet Jon at library, tuition then go somewhere chiong till at least 9pm. Let's go. Chiong ah!!! Take care on your trip please. And to Kenneth, remember to help me ask about the thing I asked! Thanks loads!! (:
Posted this song before, decided to post it again, the live version this time. Inspired by just now's blasting of music lol. Forgot what I wanted to post also lol. One of my ever favourite songs, melody wise and lyrically (:
Seize The Day (Live in LBC) -- Avenged Sevenfold
Seize the day or die Regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here Too many people to ache over I see my vision burn I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry These streets we travel on Will undergo our same lost past I found you here Now please just stay for a while I can move on with you around I hand you my mortal life But will it be forever? I'd do anything for a smile Holding you 'til our time is done We both know the day will come But I don't want to leave you I see my vision burn I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry A melody, a memory Or just one picture Seize the day or die Regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here Too many people to ache over Newborn life replacing all of us Changing this fable we live in No longer needed here So where do we go? Will you take a journey tonight Follow me past the walls of death? But girl, what if There is no eternal life? I see my vision burn I feel my memories fade with time But I'm too young to worry A melody, a memory Or just one picture Seize the day or die Regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here Too many people to ache over Trials in life, questions of us existing here Don't wanna die alone Without you here, please tell me What we have is real So, what if I never hold you, yeah Or kiss your lips again? So I never want to leave you And the memories of us to see I beg don't leave me Seize the day or die Regretting the time you lost It's empty and cold without you here Too many people to ache over Trials in life, questions of us existing here Don't wanna die alone Without you here, please tell me What we have is real Silence, you lost me No chance for one more day Silence, you lost me No chance for one more day I'm stuck here alone (Silence, you lost me) Falling away from you no chance to get back home (No chance for one more day) I'm stuck here alone (Silence, you lost me) Falling away from you no chance to get back home (No chance for one more day)
Now I'm left with nothing, but there's so much time to figure out the rest of my life. I'll figure it out, when all is said and done
Alright, shall update again. Yesterday wasn't a really productive day for me :/ Woke up late cause of the weather. Damn nice to sleep in man haha. Went to print stuff then went to school. Kept burning out and sleeping -.- Freaking unproductive man zzzz... Decided to come home early. Bumped into Chin, Shian, Lionel, Joshua and JZ at Serene Centre Macs. Slept late (again) cause I tried to do some Chem mcq for tuition. This morning's tuition went through that paper. Freaking failed it lah 10/40... Damn hard paper.. Freaking demoralising. Had lunch with Jon then went to school again. Not too bad managed to quite a bit of work. But I believe I can be better than that. Hari Raya Puasa tomorrow, Chin, Shian and gang coming over to do work I think. Better be as productive as possible lol.. Had dinner at Astons at Sixth Avenue with KB, Yong Le, Jun Wee, Eugene, Jason, Jing Han and E Yang. Damn fun time laughing and talking cock there lol.
I had a freaky and weird dream two nights ago. It was kinda out of this world o.o Woke up feeling a little freaked out, since people I know in real life were kinda involved in it.. And I don't know why even Facebook seems to be making fun of me. Must you really add salt? Conincidence as much as it may be, but it happened more than once -.- Not that it was totally a bad thing in a sense, gave me a reminder at least.. Wish there was more I could say about this
So the question is, as always, the question. Stuck in limbo in question. For the mind isn't a book, it can't simply just be read like that. It's more than that. It's a complex being, as with the beings it's associated with. A simple item can be complicated once it is processed, so who's to be accountable? The scenario? Or the mind? Add in the heart, what do you get? A jumbled emotional cocktail. That's what makes us human
Oh yeah, Happy Belated Birthday to my chatting buddy Milissa! One year plus liao still always chatting random stuff haha. Okay freaking tired, I shall turn in earlier tonight I guess. I miss Mum already ):
So grant me this chance, this chance to perform that same miracle again. Will I be able to pull it off again? I'll work, and work. Live, laugh, love. Bring it all down. Let the beat lead and drive you
Two is Better Than One -- Boys Like Girls
I remember what you wore on the first day You came into my life and I thought "Hey, you know, this could be something" 'Cause everything you do and words you say You know that it all takes my breath away And now I'm left with nothing So maybe it's true That I can't live without you And maybe two is better than one But there's so much time To figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undone And I'm thinking two is better than one I remember every look upon your face The way you roll your eyes The way you taste You make it hard for breathing 'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away I think of you and everything's okay I'm finally now believing That maybe it's true That I can't live without you And maybe two is better than one But there's so much time To figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undone And I'm thinking two is better than one I remember what you wore on the first day You came into my life and I thought, "Hey" Maybe it's true That I can't live without you Maybe two is better than one But there's so much time To figure out the rest of my life And you've already got me coming undone And I'm thinking I can't live without you 'Cause, baby, two is better than one But there's so much time To figure out the rest of my life But I'll figure it out When all is said and done Two is better than one Two is better than one
There's nothing I can say, there's nothing I can do, it's a total eclipse of the heart
Okay I shall make some effort to update this place. Last week's papers. Hmm, well compo for GP was okay I guess, all 3 of us (You'en, Khai and I) in the same GP group for Miss Kaur's class did the same question lol. Compre was kinda screwed up, AQ die liao... Physics paper 3, screwed up quite a bit, then panicked when I had too little time left for my last question, so rushed through a lot of stuff :/ Econs was erm well, spammed whatever seemed to come to my head. The contents of my essay don't seem as elaborate or as much as the others in terms of volume.. Mind was screwed so abandoned the initial plan to study straight away and went to KAP with 25 and 27 guys. Lunched there then we went to play pool at Bukit Timah Plaza. Studying later plan was also abandoned by Jaron and I lol. Came home then went to J8 to meet the gang for dinner. Eugene suay suay screwed up some stuff in camp then end up tio guard duty -.- So our laxing dinner became a bit rushed. Nonetheless, quite fun, with Leon and Wai Yinn being around too this time. Had Sakae Sushi! Had random desserts and stuff then Eugene had to go off. We bumped into Greg then played a bit of Lan in Amk lol. Fun evening.
Saturday and Sunday weren't exactly productive :/ Saturday's tuition was a topical revision lesson which I sort of already knew, since the lesson was supposed to be the week before and screwed up my personal revision schedule -.- Had a hard time looking for a place to study, Jon and I ended up going to Dome at Bishan CC to do work before Chem -.- Have to start looking for places to study every weekend already man zzz... Sunday had Physics tuition again as some extra lesson. After that went to buy a few things from J8. Got new bag as well! My old sling bag from my squadmates is kinda cui now. It's still kept though (: And I like my new bag too! Zinc one, kinda like some crumpler like that haha, nice!
Monday was pretty screwed up, cause Eugene and I had double econs tuition lessons, one at 12:30pm and one at 6:30pm. Had lunch with Soon Kiang, talked a lot of random stuff from floorball to army haha. Nice meeting him again (: Brain dead by the end of the second lesson.. Didn't absorb everything -.- Today had consultation with Mr Tan for Math, then chionged Math the whole day in school with the usual gang. HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE!!! FLOORBALL AFTER A'S MAN!! We were making some joke during lunch that we could have called all the juniors and start some random match with those whom we saw in school today lol
Freaking tired everyday. This giant psychological barrier is hindering me. It's one of fear. Cause once I screw up for this, I'm a goner. Just how much more mental strain can I take? I hope not to repeat what happened like the other times :/
Discovered this song a few days ago, it's pretty old. Listened to it for quite a bit. Good stuff from the past
Total Eclipse of the Heart -- Bonnie Tyler
Turnaround, every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming around Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by Turnaround, Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight And I need you more than ever And if you'll only hold me tight We'll be holding on forever And we'll only be making it right Cause we'll never be wrong together We can take it to the end of the line Love is like a shadow on me all of the time I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I'm only falling apart There's nothing I can do A total eclipse of the heart Once upon a time there was light in my life, Now there's only love in the dark Nothing I can say A total eclipse of the heart Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart Turnaround bright eyes, Every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight And I need you more than ever And if you'll only hold me tight We'll be holding on forever And we'll only be making it right Cause we'll never be wrong together We can take it to the end of the line Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Forever's gonna start tonight Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I'm only falling apart There's nothing I can say A total eclipse of the heart A total eclipse of the heart A total eclipse of the heart
