Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Standing on the rooftops, wait until the bombs drop. This is all we got now, scream until your heart stops
Oh well, biggest news this week. Checked online with the rest and this is what I found out for myself:
Good evening Mr TAN YI PIN, BRYAN. Your enlistment date is on 08-Feb-2011. Your reporting unit is BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE SCHOOL 2
To be honest, my heart sank when I saw it, there goes so many of the little plans that I had harboured for after A's... Maybe it's fate, telling me I should move on and not be involved too much in the things I care about :/ There goes fb, there goes np. Haiz..
On a slightly more positive note, Wei Jie joined us for dinner today after tuition. Haven't had a good meet up since who knows when. Too bad time was a limiting factor, since tuition ended damn late. Hopefully we can catch up again soon
I really really wish I could say/do something to make people feel better. I would if I could
I think this is the maximum I can go. My fate is sealed. I really thinking how far can I even go. 9 more days, the beginning of my end
ENDURE!!!! DON'T FKING GIVE UP NOW
Rooftops --Lostprophets
When our time is up When our lives are done Will we say, we've had our fun Will we make a mark this time Will we always say we tried We're standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out This is all we got now Everybody scream your heart out All the love I've met I have no regrets If it all ends now, I'm set Will we make a mark this time Will we always say we tried We're standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out This is all we got now Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Wait until the bombs drop This is all we got now Scream until your heart stops Never gonna regret Watching every sunset We'll, listen to your heartbeat All the love that we found Standing on the rooftops Wait until the bombs drop This is all we got now Scream until your heart stops Never gonna regret Watching every sunset We'll, listen to your heartbeat All the love that we found Scream your heart out Scream your heart out Scream your heart out Scream your Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out Standing on the rooftops Everybody scream your heart out This is all we got now Everybody scream your
If the time could turn us around, then perhaps what once was lost may be found, for you and me, for you and me
I feel really sad for some reason. Okay maybe not sad totally, but maybe a mix of sianness and the down feeling. I seriously have no idea why zzz. Maybe it's cause of the compre pracs lol. Freaking tired zzzz. Need to gather back my thoughts again
Has the limit been reached?
13 days
This was one of my favourite songs from their new album some time back, it still is. Love the bridge part leading to the solo then the chorus again. Emo song for emo mood haha
It Is What It Is -- Lifehouse
I was only looking for a shortcut home But it's complicated So complicated Somewhere in this city is a road I know Where we could make it But maybe there's no making it now Too long we've been denying Now we're both tired of trying We hit a wall and we can't get over it Nothing to relive It's water under the bridge You said it, I get it I guess it is what it is I was only trying to bury the pain But I made you cry, and I can't stop the crying Was only trying to save me But I lost you again Now there's only lying Wish I could say it's only me Too long we've been denying Now we're both tired of trying We hit a wall and we can't get over it Nothing to relive It's water under the bridge You said it, I get it I guess it is what it is Here it comes ready or not We both found out it's not how we thought That it would be, how it would be If the time could turn us around What once was lost may be found For you and me, for you and me Too long we've been denying Now we're both tired of trying We hit a wall and we can't get over it Nothing left to relive It's water under the bridge You said it, I get it I guess it is what it is I was only looking for a shortcut home But it's complicated So complicated
And now you think that you're the only one who doesn't have to try, then you won't have to fail. If you're afraid to fly, then I guess you never will
Okay, finally blogging again. Haven't had the time for the past week. Then again, there isn't really much to say about my life anyway -.- Past few days it's just been going to school everyday to study. Except last week had more stuff like consultations and tests. I realise I'm seriously freaking careless man, shows a lot in the past few Math papers I've been doing -.- Then damn sian for GP now cause got shot by Miss Kaur during consultation zzz.. And she won't mark any full essays, so with no more consultations left for essays I'm kinda screwed :/ And must chiong Econs liao man.. Haiz.. This week (and the next) camping in school again lol
Okay Jerrell, here's your para: One of the CHS guys who I got to know better in NJ. I know last year I had a bit of difficulty with you but now used to your style le hahaha. Quite a nice guy, damn fun talking cock with you. Thanks for the encouragement every now and then. You'll do well for A's haha.
Lot's of thoughts flowing through my mind. Had many funny dreams lately, especially last week. Had some nightmares as well :/ Everyday sleep late then wake up early feel damn tired man haiz.. Kian Boon says I'm destined to die young lol.. On a brighter note, bought Lifehouse's album called Smoke & Mirrors! Music is like my best company now man. Then now as we edge closer and closer to A's, the more I want to go work out and play floorball again ): I miss having a CCA to look forward too :/ Haiz. Must get rid of the sian mood that keeps trying to come back -.- It's exactly 2 weeks to Chemistry Paper 3.. By the way, all the best to the people taking O's!
And if it's not enough (If it's not enough, if it's not enough) If it's not enough (Not enough) Try again (Try again) And again (And again) Over and over again
Where is your resolve? Where is your heart? I've had enough, but would you even give a second glance? As the smoke and mirrors start to fade away
It's damn fun to quote song lyrics, there's a lot of meaning in them. Mix them with whatever you want like some quote from some anime or something and it'll become something lol. Not a really good example though since they're (supposedly?) not linked but what the heck lol
I found this song really soothing. Love the lyrics!
It's The Only One You've Got -- 3 Doors Down
How do you know where you're going when you don't know where you've been? You hide the shame that you're not showing And you won't let anyone in A crowded street can be a quiet place when you're walking alone And now you think that you're the only one who doesn't have to try Then you won't have to fail If you're afraid to fly, then I guess you never will You hide behind your walls of maybe, nevers Forgetting that there's something more than just knowing better Your mistakes do not define you now, they tell you who you're not You've got to live this life you're given like it's the only one you've got Memories have left you broken and the scars have never healed The emptiness in you is growing, there's so little left to fill You're scared to look back on the days before, but too tired to move on And now you think that you're the only one who doesn't have to try Then you won't have to fail If you're afraid to fly, then I guess you never will You hide behind your walls of maybe, nevers Forgetting that there's something more than just knowing better Your mistakes do not define you now, they tell you who you're not You've got to live this life you're given like it's the only one you've got Ooh and what would it take to get you to say that I'll try? And what would you say if this was the last day of your life? You hide behind your walls of maybe, nevers Forgetting that there's something more than just knowing better Your mistakes do not define you now, they tell you who you're not You've got to live this life you're given like it's the only one you've got You hide behind your walls of maybe, nevers Forgetting that there's something more than just knowing better Your mistakes do not define you now, they tell you who you're not You've got to live this life you're given like it's the only one you've got
The end of another journey. For all that it has been, please don't let this be our last goodbye
Yesterday was our Farewell Assembly. Basically it was all in the hall, had some admin stuff to do here and there. Talking about results, exam stuff etc. Had a motivational speech by one of our alumni. The speaker's life story was really an inspiration, if I had been in that kind of situation I don't think I would have had the strength to go such levels. It really makes you count the blessings in your life and make you want to strive for your best. Some speeches were made. I guess the most important part was the farewell video. Really touching comments by the teachers here and there, the last part of the slow motion along the path of the side gate gave me a kind of slowed down replay of everything that happened. Took photos with people after that. Didn't manage to take with everyone I wanted to take with :/ And I realised I forgot to take pictures with some people.. ._. Hopefully the next event then (: So yeah, spammed pics, had the birthday cake for the October babies. Then went for class lunch at Swensen's at Plaza Sing. Not everyone managed to go sadly, 17/25 pretty good number. Talked cock a bit during lunch, then the guys walked around deciding what to do. Wanted to play Lan but got rejected by all the shops cause of our attire lol. Stoned for quite a bit. In the end some of us decided to plan Lan at Bukit Timah so went back then played. Had dinner with a few more people joining in then felt sian so played pool with Wei Jian and Zhong Xi before coming home lol. Some things happened during the course of the day which made me pretty upset and sian, but I guess now I shall not dwell too much on it and not let it mar this occasion.
I entered NJ last year with quite an open mind, since well I had actually wanted to come to NJ, since in Sec 4 I thought this was the best place I could go without Higher Chinese (I thought VJ was too far haha) So I came, met a lot of familiar faces, first friend I got to know here: Aaron Fong (: Went through a week of orientation with OG6, had like 2 weeks of those random lectures since our class allocation wasn't out yet. Then came 09SH25. The only people I knew then were like Jian Zhong, Daniel and Hong Zhi from CHS, and Nadiah and Zhong Xi from OG6. Met You'en in some Chinese mass lecture beforehand too lol. So it was here that it all started. I still remember the very first lesson we had as a class was Math in LT3 (I think) with Mr Tan. Started off with introductions and I was known as the teacher stalker already cause of something I said haha. Slowly I got to know more people. Time passed, we went through many things in school. I finally decided to join Floorball, after having like what 5 CCAs at one shot haha. I got through the squash trials, I was in Air Rifle and Air Pistol on conditional basis and I was in Hockey and Floorball LOL! Don't regret my choice for my CCA (: At that time the team was quite epic. 9 CHS guys and 2 Nan Hua dudes (Yong Le and Sean) lol. I remember I ran for Council, I can't really remember what had happened which had caused me to start wanting to back out. I stayed all the way till elections. In the end, I made the very difficult choice between two important CCAs. I chose Floorball. Whatever people might say, as I've told people, I left my heart at 50-50 for this issue, no regrets. At the very least I got to know quite a lot of people from Council haha. A lot of funny things happened in the second half of the year I think. CTs, Promos, Floorballholic, NDC (got to wear my cadet uniform again!), Games Day, Chinese A's, PW(!!). So many epic things. End of the year till now: YLTC, Orientation, Nationals. YLTC was damn fun! One of the most enjoyable adventure camps I've ever been to. Nationals was also something that was pretty exciting. It's been one heck of a ride man.
09SH25 has been a class I've really enjoyed company with in these 2 years. Initially, I started out being only close to some people, like You'en, Joshua Tan and Nigel. Slowly, especially in SH2, I got to know more people in the class much better, like Chong Wee, Khai Soon and Joshua Ng. I also got to reinforce those friendships I already had with people like Jian Zhong and Hong Zhi, both of who I didn't really interact much with in CHS. I enjoyed those times we spent having meals talking cock during breaks, chionging to complete tutorials together, playing Monopoly Deal, playing basketball, sounding the horn in class and just basically spending time as a large bunch of people. As Nigel once put it, the mood of the class usually never fails to get you back up again. The mixture of people around is really awesome. Yanzhao and Sibo are two China scholars who are damn awesome guys! I think out teachers also were half irritated and half tickled by our class atmosphere haha. Not forgetting those from 09SH27, whom for me I got to know much better this year. Our new class 09SH28! Looking forward to our concurrent class chalets haha. I think words aren't enough to explain the awesome stuff we've been through. Thanks so much to our teachers for everything you've done for us all this time. Though for myself personally I know I haven't exactly been I good student, as compared to Secondary School :/ I appreciate everything nonetheless and I'll do my best to do all of you proud! Thanks so much guys for this wonderful two years in class. I couldn't have asked for a better class environment. It's been a great blessing knowing all of you and I really hope we'll all be able to keep in touch for years to come (:
Another thing I should mention is definitely Floorball. As mentioned, I made a choice on which CCA to join early last year and I guess I made the correct one. I fell in love with the sport, the gameplay, the whole structure of how it goes, ironically I only knew the true joy of playing it after Nationals this year, when I could finally play without any constraints or pressure, to hone my skills even more. I daresay to a certain degree we had quite a bit of passion for the game. Of course, I feel we were definitely a promising team, though whatever happened during nationals proved otherwise. That was however, largely due to a number of factors that came our way. Given one more chance, and one more year at it, I'm sure we would have stood a much a better chance (: Floorball was always something I looked forward to after school, something to ease my mind to relax and have fun. Though stressful and pretty frustrating at times, I always enjoyed handling FB stuff (sometimes doing them too much lol). Trainings were also pretty fun, cause we had plenty of jokers around in the team. JX suanning Daryl, Yi Jun talking cock, everyone suanning Shaun, taupoking and declaring Warren GAYLORD. There was one period of time we had a lot of fun playing basketball after some PT when the courts were still there. We did the cage stuff for people's birthdays (Daryl, Wazy and YJ I think), we had Hun Quan as a retarded joker (Remember him scoring in the CHS friendly and celebrating till he fell flat on court?)... It was fun. As much as I was really pissed in the past, I would like to one day play floorball with this team again, side by side with everyone truely playing with their heart. Hopefully, at the end of the year (: Not forgetting of course, the girls team. Our year was damn suay where there was a problem with the girls team cause of some stuff. In the end there was a threat of the girls' side closing down this year I think. Nonetheless, last year was still pretty fun with them around. With this, I would like to thank some people. Thanks JX, for being really supportive all this time and giving plenty of ideas for so many things, including non-fb stuff. Thanks Warren, for being my confidant at times. Thanks Yong Le, for being such a great guy and also supporting everything that came about. Thanks Eugene, for being those who was really passionate about the game, it helped a lot. Thanks Joanne and Amelia, for being such awesome fellow Captains from the girls' team. I think it was pretty lucky that we had worked together before in Floorballholic, and I think that helped a lot in our communication in getting things done and stuff. Hopefully we'll all be able to stay in contact. Hopefully we'll be able to go back after A's to play again and help out with the juniors. Hopefully this passion for the game will never die (:
I guess it's appropriate now to say a few words to certain people. To Wei Shian, my dear friend of 12 whole years since P1. Althought I didn't really manage to talk much to you in CHS, our friendship really strengthened over this time in NJ. Thanks so much for being there for me all this time, straightening my thoughts when I was down, when I needed someone to talk to. Thanks for helping me with my work too haha (: To Nigel Seng, thanks so much being a great friend to me too. Though we had a very short-lived but very bad fight during Orientation this year cause we got pissed at each other for some stupid stuff, we still have gone through much together as fellow 'Stick-CCA' Captains. Thanks so much for being there and speaking to me at the grandstand that day when I broke down just 2 days before Nationals. Now you're the mega cheapo man haha (: To Hilary my dear cousin/sister, I'm really glad that we came to the same school. Before this, there was the sort of cold war between the families after some stupid quarrel over some lame stuff in like 2005 or something. And we only managed to contact all the cousins again after what happened to Grandpa in 2006, and Great Grandma in 2008. Since NJ, we've become really close and I really appreciate this blessing of stronger family ties (: To Milissa, thanks so much for being my conversation buddy (sorry lah now don't have a better term for it here haha) Our conversations could go on for epicly long haha. Thanks for the motivations, the encourgaement and sharing of thoughts and stuff. It's been a great pleasure knowing you since last year (: To you, fancy how we ended up in the same school after so long too lol. It was initially really great at the start of last year. Some stuff happened, you could say it's my fault still and this led to some complicated stuff that lasted for damn long, finally leading to the cold war for like 3 months. I'm glad that at least now we're on speaking terms, though not as close as last time, but at least decent friends. Though I don't think you really care, but yeah you'll be a special friend to me always To you, it's been a while since I really spent quality time with you (sounds gay lol). Last year, especially in the second half I think, we always used to go home together, then have random dinners, chats and whatever funny stuff here and there (dinner at what 11:30pm near 628 there?) Come 2010, probably cause of the move in Term 2, as well as getting caught up with our busy lives in CCA and for you Council, we didn't really have time to interact much anymore. After CTs finally talked to you more lol. Hopefully at the end of the year when everything's over and I go back, it might go back to somewhat that perhaps? To you, I don't really know how to put it. I really kind of miss what we used to be, how I could so easily talk to you and stuff, working together to settle things, suanning you and laughing at whatever retarded stuff you (and sometimes me) did. It was great, for that short-lived 1-2 months when we were damn close. I still carefully keep all the things you gave me, including the card, lamp, the pot, even that item during CNY (it wasn't really supposed to be something good to me at that point though I guess, but what the heck). As I look back, I wonder why now it just seems so hard to talk to you. I guess it's probably my fault in a way (I'll just take the blame for it I guess), for how some things have gone. I don't really show it, but it really is on my mind many a times. I'm sorry I had to appear dao sometimes, to protect both of us from any funny stuff. But at other times, it just feels like there's a piece of glass between the two of us, and I can't seem to reach to you. Hopefully at the end of this daunting journey, we can go back to what it was, to at least what it was last year. Whatever the case, just know that I'll be here whenever you need me. To you, I've learned a lot from you over these 2 years. You've been a great friend, reliable, and definitely proficient. Though there were times you really pissed me off with some things (and vice versa, I'm sure), I still treasure you as a friend, seeing that you were the first few people I got to know. I'm sorry I wasn't really able to full appreciate the pushes you were giving me, especially in Term 2 and 3 this year, sometimes even reacting in a very screwed up manner to it. I just wasn't used to the style which it was given to me. You've been great company all this time, I just hope it's mutual. I'm looking forward to the end when we can all go crazy with our gang lol.
It's been a really long post. It's been 2 years, a lot of stuff has happened. I don't regret not appealing to anywhere else, I don't regret coming here to NJ at all. The memories have been made here in this school, with all the people I've met. It's been a great journey, and as I walk down that side gate pathway again, I'll remember the days we had here in this school. Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened. Thank you so much everyone (:
It hurts, wounds so sore. Now I'm torn, now I'm torn. I've been far away. When I see your face my hearts burst into fire
Okay, went a bit siao just now. Got damn demoralised by the HCI math paper just now due to multiple carelessness and screw ups for don't know how to do and stuff, just walked out of the library.. Played a bit of floorball at the gym with the juniors, didn't do much then sweat like crap already -.- Felt damn sian then just came home to bathe before tuition. Got a headache and nauseous feeling for the afternoon -.-
Besides the mini drive of frustration/insanity whatever you would like to call it, the day marked the end of our lessons. Last Math lecture, last econs lecture, officially at least. Which brings me to the feeling again. For one issue, I don't want to talk about it. For another, the main one. I'm starting to miss everything from lectures to tutorials to pw meetings to Chinese lessons (lol) to morning assemblies to seeing people in the canteen and saying hi (lol) to going to the Cat High table in the morning to talk cock to having OGL stuff to having to chiong homework with people to floorball trainings to.... oh well, EVERYTHING!! 2 years, it felt like it was just yesterday that we just came in fresh from O's, having orientation, and now it's going to end. SIAN! Hope I don't cry tomorrow lol..
For all that it has ever been for all this time, please don't let this be our last goodbye ):
Hearts Burst Into Fire -- Bullet For My Valentine
I'm coming home I've been gone for far too long Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving Have I fucked things up again? I'm dreaming Too much time we'd have to spend
It hurts, wounds so sore Now I'm torn, now I'm torn I've been far away
When I see your face My hearts burst into fire Hearts burst into fire
You're not alone I know I'm far from home Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving Do you wait for me again? I'm screaming No more days we'd have to spend
It hurts, wounds so sore Now I'm torn, now I'm torn I've been far away
When I see your face My hearts burst into fire Hearts burst into fire
My beds become so lonely No arms or sheets to hold me Has this world stopped turning? I'll wait forever to be apart, forever to be apart
It hurts, wounds so sore Now I'm torn, now I'm torn I've been far away
When I see you face My hearts burst into fire Hearts burst into fire
I'm coming home I've been gone for far too long Do you remember me at all? Do you remember me at all?
I'm leaving I'm screaming I'm dreaming My hearts burst into fire
And everything I have in this world and all that I'll ever be. It could all fall down around me, just as long as I have you right here by me
Okay, haven't exactly recovered yet. At least it's better than last night.. Went to school only for the science lectures. Mr Wong's last lecture in NJ, cause he's leaving. Chem went through planning. Didn't go for Math mock, luckily I didn't. Had a very bad headache in the afternoon and went to sleep lol. Now I can't think properly, having a hard time doing math zzz..
I think I'm quite the sentimental type, like anything I've gone through with a siginificant enough impact I'll really miss it when it comes to the end. I don't really know if that's a good thing or not. On one hand, it's good that I've been able to connect with whatever I've gone through in that certain phase. Conversely, it just shows a sense of being unable to let go and move on, sticky as critics might say. As we go down to the last few days in NJ, with our graduation in a mere 2 days, I've been reminiscing a lot about things for the past few weeks I think. A lot of things came flooding back to me, not just the things in NJ, more ironically it was other times in the past too. For NJ wise, quite a number I spoke to all give the response going along the lines of 'I can't wait to get out of NJ'. Well each to his own I guess. Not sure if this kind of sentimental feeling stuff shows like well a bit of weakness in a way. I think I'm the type who can tear easily when something emotionally moving comes my way. Come Friday, I might just end up crying again... Hope not, later everyone's impression of me will change lol.. Maybe Friday will be a more appropriate time to do a reflection for these 2 years. Meanwhile, I seem to be resminiscing other things. I miss the days in green and white, I miss the days in blue. Funnily enough, I kind of miss doing drills, which kinda made my CI-ship a little boring lol. I loved parades and drill in Secondary school. Most people would call me retarded and obsessed for this. Heard it a lot of times. I never really fully understood the meaning of a rank-donning ceremony too. In D'08 I didn't really think much about it I guess, but looking back it was probably one of the best feelings to pass out of a course like that. I miss the day 29th did our last parade together in a squad. End of the year hopefully can get the video from Leonard (:
Yep I'm pretty weird to be thinking of all this. I think this time I might be impacted more due the the looming period of serving the nation. It's a full time commitment. I don't really have anyone close whom I know who has gone through NS and to uni and stuff to tell me how the path might possible be like. I can only guess. As for now, I can't seem to see anything beyond NS lol. With this, I also have to acknowledge that it will be a sad fact that I might not see most of my friends in NJ ever again after this, or at least for a very long time. I won't be able to reconnect as much with my juniors anymore either. I don't really know how people might see me as. I now that many of the friends I've made mean a lot to me. With all this, this farewell might be more impactful than the one two years ago. In that sense, I'm really going to dread Friday ):
About some things that I thought about and shared with Leon during our gathering last weekend, I guess I'm pretty neutral, don't really want to decide about anything, if there is anything to even decide about. Won't bother to think about anything, for this period at least. Screw this pentavalent transition state.. Okay I should sleep soon. Have econs make up tuition tomorrow too lol. The very last day of lessons ): By the way, Mei please cheer up!
I found this pretty meaningful, many would recognise it as the lyrics from "Never Had A Dream Come True" by S Club 7. It has many interpretations and it probably has various meanings to each of us. What's yours?
Everybody's got something they had to leave behind, one regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time. There's no use looking back or wondering, how it could be now or might have been. And I know no matter where life takes me to, a part of me will always be with you
Discovered this band pretty recently, for those songs I like, it's the kind of style that I'm quite comfortable with. Soothing and melodious. I like this song a lot
Here By Me -- 3 Doors Down
I hope you're doing fine out there without me 'Cause I'm not doing so good without you The things I thought you'd never know about me Were the things I guess you always understood So how could I have been so blind for all these years I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you And everything I have in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me I can't take another day without you 'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own I've been waiting so long just to hold you And to be back in your arms where I belong I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say But everything I've ever known gets swept away Inside of your love And everything I have in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me As the days roll on I see Time is standing still for me When you're not here I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say Everything I've ever known gets swept away Inside of your love And everything I have in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me
With blood shot eyes, I watch you sleeping. The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading. Would she hear me, if I called her name?
Okay, finally have time to update this place. The past 2 weeks or so have been quite siao, during the two recent weekends got piled with a hell lot of work to do. Absolutely no time to complete everything. Nothing really interesting happened I guess, save for the staying back to study every day and stuff. Can't really remember. Damn tired -.- Last weekend had dinner with the gang at Secret Recipe at Plaza Sing. Had a good walk around the area and stuff as well. The weekend before that went to Pizza Hut with Eugene and Jon, we tried the 7 cheese pizza thingy lol. No idea if there were any other things. Oh met Manfred in CHS then he told me the actual story or what had actually happened about some stuff. The whole thing is just damn screwed up. Visited CHS again about 2 weeks ago cause I wanted to apply for Eagles and stuff, had a good chat with some of my teachers there (: Best part about CH, maybe it's cause I'm an ex-student already or something, but the teachers are always willing to talk and be on a certain level of friendliness with you, most of the time lol. I guess that's something I didn't really get to experience here. Had a mad rush last week trying to settle testimonial and CCA records stuff. I guess that's what contributed to all the crap last week, everything just comes in one shot -.-Yesterday had a GP mock compre test, with the going through of the answers as well. Screwed up like siao, like mega fail kind. Totally brain dead by the time we ended, which was like 6:45pm or so.. Had dinner with Wei Jian and Jaron at Coro, had fun talking cock all the way lol
Came home earlier than usual today, wasn't feeling well so yeah. I think I feel a fever coming already zzz.. A sore throat is usually the symptom of it. Might be the reason why I'm so stoned these few days. Have been sleeping late for quite some time (people are going to nag at me for this again lol) Anyway, the last one and a half week wasn't really the best of times. Thank you so much Dylan for the make-shift note and stuff. Really really appreciate it (: Thank you Garry for the random convo last week as well. Thanks Mei for the usual random talking and stuff lol. My teachers in CHS also gave me their spiritual support as well. See what stuff we can do. Got flooded with quite a number of things in my mind as well. Another time I guess
Okay shall go take a nap soon. My studying plan for today got screwed up zzz. Ah well, like Jaron said, better to try and recover by tonight then work again tomorrow. Though there is a Math mock paper tomorrow zzz
Have been discovering a lot of awesome songs over the past few weeks. Attracted by both the tune and also the meanings behind the lyrics, good connection with both. Like quoting random phrases out nowadays, combining some make them have cooler phrasings and meanings lol
One of the songs I got introduced to. I have no idea what's the meaning of the music video lol. Cool intro tune, a bit screamo but manageable for me, not a bad song lol. Can get your heart racing to help wake up haha
Tears Don't Fall -- Bullet For My Valentine
Let's go!
With blood shot eyes, I watch you sleeping The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading Would she hear me, if I called her name? Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?
There's always something different going wrong The path I walk is in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me makes things better?
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home
The moments died, I hear no screaming The visions left inside me are slowly fading Would she hear me, if I called her name? Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?
There's always something different going wrong The path I walk is in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me makes things better?
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home
This battered room I've seen before The broken bones they heal no more, no more With my last breath I'm choking Will this ever end I'm hoping My world is over one more time
Let's go!
Would she hear me, if I called her name? Would she hold me, if she knew my shame? There's always something different going wrong The path I walk is in the wrong direction There's always someone fucking hanging on Can anybody help me makes things better?
Your tears don't fall, they crash around me Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home Your tears don't fall, they crash around me (Tears don't fall) Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home (Conscious calls)
Damn sian, damn stressed, damn tired, damn qi, damn scared, damn everything. Screw ths pressure, screw everything. Hell lot of work, hell lot of who knows wha rubbish to do. So little time. Wake up everyday feeling like crap. Need more time, need more intellect, need more sleep. Cracking under this immense load. Can go form multiple organice products already..
