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Forgiving What I've (not) Done

Not used to waking up late on Thursdays, usually had pt in the morning last time lol. Lessons were okay, except I knocked out during Math when I told myself not to -.- Was awake for Econs though lol. Break, monopoly deal, PE, soccer. Math conso, amde me damn demoralised as mistake after mistake was revealed. Knocked out again in the midst of the lecture. Guess I might still need another night to recover.. Meeting with Miss Wong, then went to play fb in the gym. Darius, Jeffrey, Adrian and Jia Wei came down today, haven't seen any of them in some time. In like 7 months plus we'll be like them already lol. Side note, I think being a keeper can be quite fun at times haha

Somehow the topic of the team has always been a touchy issue for me. More specifically my own team. Today's meeting was like a wrap up of things and a discussion of things to pass on and stuff. The same things keep bugging me again. What have I done for my term? It's a little hard to explain everything in words here. But yeah, I think my facial expression gave away what I was thinking a bit. Certain little issues can just trigger off some not so happy feelings. Cause these were probably the things that had been giving me problems for a very long time. Then again, I asked myself in the classroom. I can forgive others for their mistakes and stuff quite easily, but can I really forgive myself? Especially for this, for the things I've done and well not done? I dunno. I almost wanted to cry when Miss Wong gave the final line about like saying how we did our jobs and stuff. I don't know if I really deserved those words at all. I don't know if one day I can really forgive myself for what I've (not) done

Damn irritated at the moment. Last minute suddenly received a sms saying tuition is at 1pm wth -.- Usually it's at like 10am then now it's gonna disrupt some plans zzz. And Homecoming's this Saturday!!! Argh!! And take care luhh, damn lucky there was a check up man. Better rest your eyes this week! (:

What I've Done -- Linkin Park


In this farewell
There's no blood
There's no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth
Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
Put to rest
What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands
Of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And wash away

What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
For what I've done
I start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done

I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
(Na-na na na)(Na-na na na)(Na-na na na)
What I've done(Na-na na na)(Na-na na na)
(Na-na na na)(Na-na na na)
Forgiving what I've done(Na-na na na)(Na-na na na)
(Na-na na na)(Na-na na na)(Na-na na)

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