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Pro Term, Part 1: Combined phase 1

Here we go

mentally challenged @ 12:19 AM 0 comments

Okay it's time I did this blog justice again. First things first, Service Term is over! The weekend before had an almost non-existent weekend. The wing got confined over to Saturday afternoon cause of the apparent lack of discipline of everyone, booked out only at like 2:30pm cause of the stand by area -.- Then, cause our room got raided and was deemed 'not in stand by condition', Wei Lun and I had to book in on Sunday morning at 7:30am for confinement along with like 20 plus others. Total waste of my day there doing almost nothing -.- The week was quite okay I guess, met Jun Long at the camp visit. Had some lectures, then mostly area cleaning lol. Tues had a stand by helmet, then at night there was a fire drill, and suay suay somebody's face had a camo stain, so it became 'WHOLE LOT 5 MINS CAMO ON' That was at 11:35pm approximately, epic fail haha. Thursday was our senior bar presentation ceremony. HENG NO TURN OUT SIA. Sergeant Major decided to be nice and let us off at about 2 plus in the afternoon. Social Night was held at Intercontinental Hotel at Bugis, quite an enjoyable event (: We walked around with Rayson and Si Ying to Macs at Raffles City, till I started knocking out then we decided it was time to go home lol. Thanks Kim for being my date! Don't need sign extra LOL

Friday went back to NJ to collect cert with JX plus join fb training, the attendance was quite disappointing though, so didn't manage to do much. Then talked with Shi Min, Qi Heng and Marvin at The Tea House for freaking long until like 9:45pm lol. Saturday had lunch with family to celebrate fathers' day, then dinner with the class guys. Talked cock, half pool half lan. 3rd July we shall see each other again (: Sunday was the hit around! Managed to meet up with the seniors and those we haven't seen in some time. Had fun, thanks Hun Quan for organising! (: Dinner and talk cock at Kallang Leisure Centre. Was supposed to go for LMSC today, but woke up with a fever -.- Hopefully by tomorrow I can be better to participate in stuff

It used to be my pride, with all the practise and how crazy I was over it. It meant a great deal to me, for things involving something as simplistic as this. Kinda disappointed with myself. Is it complaceny? Or am I simply not good enough?

I'm kinda disappointed with my performance during Service Term, partially I felt damn sian and didn't manage to learn much in that period. I felt that I learnt more in CLM.. I probably hold a record of not holding any formal appointments since BMT, which isn't the case for most people in Air Wing at the moment. Something's really wrong here

Maybe I'm not ready. Then again, maybe you could do much better than me

mentally challenged @ 11:47 PM 0 comments

What a day today. Only Tuesday and my mood totally got killed :/ Confinement on Sunday due to bunk not being in standby condition zzz. Shall hope that we get to bookout on Friday night still at the very least. Now the only thing that's motivating me is that course is ending next Thurs for Service Term

Lesson on Leadership again today. It's interesting to see the different perspectives of this topic from the many different areas where I've attended such a lesson. Practice what you preach? Ethically upright? What should we do when stuck in a difficult situation between doing the right thing, and doing things right? I guess I can be considered inexperienced in a sense that I have yet to come across situations where I had to make major decisions and stuff. When the time comes, will I be able to make the right decision?

Another random topic to think about: Communication. How is it important, how can we improve it such that we can do things better?

Points to ponder, but it's time to sleep soon anyway lol

mentally challenged @ 10:26 PM 0 comments

I break down, fear is sinking in, the cold comes, racing through my skin. Searching for a way to get to you through the storm

Glad to have been able to carry out most of my weekend plans (: Left Safti at about 730am then headed home. Met Kim and JX at RP to watch Joanne's match. Last period really damn exciting! Something like what 3 or 4 goals in 3 minutes haha. Went down to NJ for the fb handover. Congrats to the new appointment holders! Had a little chat with some people, managed to meet up with awesome batchmates again (: Wanted to talk to the outgoing exco a bit but didn't manage to say everything useful that I wanted to say for the girls' side due to the lack of time. Don't think any of them would read this, but sorry if I sounded very 'lo suo' and stuff. Just wanted to help a bit in terms of self development, like what others did for me. Had a nice time talking to the guys at the very least. PS for making the rest wait again ._. Visited Dylan at Mt Alvernia, luckily he's fine haha. Ate and talked cock a bit with the rest at AMK Hub before coming home to have dinner with family at Suntec. Woke up late today -.- Met Eugene, Wei Jie, BS, Jon and Leon for lunch and then X-Men First Class! Awesome show! Talked cock at Eugene's house before splitting. Finally he's back from Germany and going for Platoon Sergeant course sia haha. Now damn tired for some reason -.-

Come to think of it, it's now been one year already since we handed over. Makes you think back about the days in floorball, settling stuff, training, or simply having fun. Somehow back then for me I could probably do more things that required physical strength and stuff, but now I can't, like intervals for example -.- Miss the days, but at least the people are still the same awesome ones. Our times as a batch would always be memorable (:

I'm not sure how appropriate this is, or whether I should even be talking about it. It's been on my mind for some time, think it'll be damn weird if some people see this... Anyway, it's been a year plus, I know many screwed up things happened last year. Whenever I try to tell people the story when asked I'm not sure how to go about saying it, cause it's really damn complicated somehow. And people usually give me the 'omg' expression when I'm done. It took me a really long time to get over it I must admit (I'm not sure if I'm fully over it yet to be honest but what the heck) I still remember the dates I think. Before A's I told myself to cast things aside so as to focus, and at times I just had to force myself to totally ignore you whenever possible, to prevent anymore rush of emotions. Slowly our friendship managed to patch back up again, and I'm really thankful for that. I guess maybe the turning point was the chalet perhaps? Since everything that had happened back then, I've seen that you've moved on. Totally not me to be expressing such things on my blog (damn weird to be talking about such stuff), but I still love and care for you, like a sister and probably one of my best female friends thus far. And I appreciate all that you've done for me, especially on my birthday for the past two years, of which they were in screwed up situations but were brightened up very much. I'm thankful for that. I hope I can continue look out for you and help whenever possible, even if you don't know it won't really matter I guess. Hope you'll do well this year, since it's of utmost importance. May the other things be successful too, especially your happiness. All the best (:

Okay finally got that off my chest. Hope it doesn't make things weird or something ._. So it's back to camp soon! Feels weird without the AFEs around. 2 weeks to go for service term! Let's see what the future holds for us. Music shall once again be my company haha

Time to revive the music in my posts

Not Alone -- Linkin Park


I break down, fear is sinking in
The cold comes, racing through my skin
Searching for a way to get to you
Through the storm you...

Go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You are not alone

With arms up, stretched into the sky
With eyes like, echoes in the night
Hiding from the hell that you've been through
Silent one, you...

Go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You are not alone

Go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known
You are not alone

You go, giving up your home
Go, leaving all you've known

You Go, giving up your home
Go, you are not alone
You are not alone

You are not alone
You are not alone

mentally challenged @ 7:18 PM 0 comments

Okay I shall first start off by backtracking to 22/5. It was a really crazy day of surprises. Had dinner with my family at Orchard, then went out to buy stuff and then got surprised like crazy by Shian, Siyun and Zhao Ming, cause all three of them crashed my house haha. Really had a pleasant surprise, with the amount of thought and effort that went into the execution of the plan, truly am touched! Thanks loads guys (:

Had a pretty epic week, route march in the most retarded scenario and starting, plus the awesome bbq which ended up with a freaking epic water bomb fight. Real war scenario man. Hoses were used to fire jets and stuff and it was instructors vs the wing lol. Freaking fun man haha. Too bad I can't say much about trainings and stuff, due to being unable to reveal anything more.

Various thoughts that have been on my mind every now and then:

Watched another war movie titled "We were soldiers", based on one part of the Vietnam war involving American troops. I sincerely pray that this would not happen, but as we have to grasp reality, what will happen if a war really breaks out involving Singapore? With a single bullet, a single grenade, a single bomb, a single strike and another human life would be wiped out. What if that infantry soldier there happened to be a friend for example, or even a family member? it just seems so easy for anybody and everybody to die in armed conflict and it really makes you look upon the value of life again. I might not be in a vocation that goes head on with an enemy during engagements, heck I might not even have a chance to take them on. But we've got friends in infantry, signals, engineers etc who are all deployable, who could possibly end up in the thick of the battlefield? I'm not trying to downplay the importance of NS or whatsoever, but rather trying to wonder what would happen if a war were to occur. The violence, the blood, the tears. I sincerely hope that it won't happen to us, and hopefully maybe even the other countries in fact

So thoughts to ponder, how would I want to live my life? The politically correct and most sensible answer is obvious, make the most of it and do what you can. Experiences and mental models shape how we go about our daily activities. Would I be able to put down the negative and harness the power and meaning of the positive? What is our objective?

My thoughts were in a total mess on Monday, it's a bit more straightened out now, but still the important questions don't have answers. Shall continue searching then

At the very least, my plans for the weekend are likely to be able to be carried out now. Few more hours! (:

mentally challenged @ 12:43 AM 0 comments