Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Back from Tekong! Okay actually was back on Monday but was too lazy/tired to blog and stuff. It's been 2 long weeks away from home. First feeling when we get off the bus onto Pasir Ris Mrt was like OMG FREEDOM! Everyone was damn high, as though we POP-ed already lol. So these two weeksin Tekong, did quite a number of things. Got the chance to do the live firing during the weapons demo. Had 4km and 6km route marches with a bloody 20kg field pack. Had lots of other stuff but lazy to say
These two weeks taught me a few things. For one it made me appreciate the stuff I had at home much more (duh). Like washing clothes for example. Washing with just a bucket and detergent well, doesn't clean it that well, but at least it helps. Saw the different styles of teaching/delivering of things, and how different people react to various situations again. Guess this helps you reflect upon your own style, and how it can be improved and stuff. Booking back in in a few hours. Field camp is next week (wtf), as well as the dreaded results day... Lazy to talk about some things now.
One year.. This time showed me something that should have been taken into account like hell long ago. Shouldn't waste time and energy anymore right? Do inform me if there's still space left thanks. At least it becomes clearer now, who does and who doesn't
So which direction to take? To try for command school? Or not? Let's see if the path becomes clearer soon
Some army songs damn nice lol
In the early morning march, with a backpack on my back. With the aching of my heart, and my shirt is full of sweat. And the cold wind blows, let the cold win blow. I know I know, you have to go, so hurry back home, cause I miss you so
Left toe, right toe keep up the tempo! Here we go again, same old thing again....
A lonely road crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find While I recall all the words you spoke to me Can't help but wish that I was there, back where I'd love to be, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of You Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you But I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again
There's nothing here for me on this barren road There's no one here while the city sleeps and all the shops are closed Can't help but think of the times I've had with you Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah
Dear God, the only thing I ask of You Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need that person who can be true to you I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again
Well, some search never finding a way Before long they waste away I found you, something told me to stay I gave in to selfish ways And how I miss someone to hold when hope begins to fade
A lonely road crossed another cold state line Miles away from those I love, purpose hard to find
Dear God, the only thing I ask of You Is to hold her when I'm not around, when I'm much too far away We all need the person who can be true to you I left her when I found her and now I wish I'd stayed Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired, I'm missing you again, oh no, once again
I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes, my heart's always with you now. I won't question why, I hope my prayers have made it through, oh yeah
Okay, so the week was pretty interesting. Had two dinners with NP people, Monday was at Ramen Play at J8 with Alvin, Terence, SM, Lao Da, Yan Hao, Jawl and Shee Huang. Jia Han also joined in. Tuesday was with Lao Da, Jawl, Pris, Rena, Wen Qi Joe, Rj, Jaime and Zheng Yang. Wednesday went back to CHS and NJ with people. Visited most of the teachers I could find (: CNY was full of activities, played mahjong quite a few times. First year I brought a cam too lol. Sat was match against MJ, lost 5-1 and missed the freaking penalty again -.- Managed to score the consolation goal though. Looking forward to continuous improvement in our play! Stayover at Leon's house. Met the floorball people at Suntec, then airport to send Yan Hao off
There were a lot of things I wanted to put down in typing, but I guess I shall not. Partly due to time constraints, partly due to the fact that it might not be of any deal anymore anyway. Yeah, but well. Just suck it up. Everyone is at perfect liberty to do what they want. On a broader perspective, this is it. Going in tomorrow, hope I won't get owned too badly these 9 weeks lol (:
A new phase starts, and this shall be another journey to make, to learn. Take care everyone! Hope to see some familiar faces in Tekong! See you in two/three weeks! (:
This is the mental challenge to overcome
Songs are some of the best ways of expression, besides providing just entertainment (I think I posted this a few times already lol, ps for the lack of originality haha)
Gunslinger -- Avenged Sevenfold
Yeah, you've been alone I've been gone for far too long But with all that we've been through After all this time I'm coming home to you
Never let it show The pain I've grown to know Cause with all these things we do It don't matter when I'm coming home to you
I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes My heart's always with you now I won't question why so many have died My prayers have made it through yeah Cause with all these things we do It don't matter when I'm coming home to you
Letters keep me warm Helped me through the storm But with all that we've been through After all this time I'm coming home to you
I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes My heart's always with you now I won't question why so many have died My prayers have made it through yeah Cause with all these things we do It don't matter when I'm coming home to you
I've always been true I've waited so long just to come hold you I'm making it through It's been far too long, we've proven our love over time's so strong, in all that we do The stars in the night, they lend me their light to bring me closer to heaven with you
(Bring me closer)
But with all that we've been through After all this time I'm coming home to you
I reach towards the sky I've said my goodbyes My heart's always with you now I won't question why so many have died My prayers have made it through yeah Cause with all these things we do It don't matter when I'm coming home to you
And with all that we've been through After all this time I'm coming home to you
Sometimes, a greater change might just bring about greater opportunities
Wherever you go, I hope you find happiness waiting
I needa blog about a few things before going off. Shall do that tomorrow. Freaking tired
Made quite a number of wishes today, I really do hope that they come true, more so for those not pertaining to my own aims in a way, except perhaps A's results lol
I can't abandon these memories, they mean too much, but only to me
Sometime I really wish I had an older brother to talk to. Like can ask him for advice and stuff, on what to expect. Guess I'm the type of person who isn't comfortable with uncertainty. That way, I can ask him everything, about army, about uni, about whatever that I've no clue about, and whom I can confide my petty little fears to. Oh well, unfortunately I have to be the older one, and sort of the oldest cousin...
And this always happens, you start to wish you could have done more only when you're about to lose it. I suddenly realise some of the things I would have liked to do before enlistment. No time now though. We're approaching the highway, and once you we start, it'll be another whole new journey by itself, and there's no turning back
This feels just like before CIBTC again. The fear from uncertainty. Sian ji pua
I really miss everything. Some part of me wishes I was back in NJ as a student :/
Was talking to RJ just now about random stuff then came across certain topic.
Over my two years in NJ I got understand many things better. How some things work, how some things should be etc. Having experienced both ends now, of being the perpetrator and the receipient. I've gotten to see things in a different light. Regarding that issue, I don't say I don't regret it, in fact I regretted all that I did back then (and didn't do). Had I been more mature back then, I might even say less materialistic, things would have been much more different. Simply, the fault lies with me, and I haven't exactly forgiven myself.
On the other side, I wondered how stupid I must have looked during the course of it. Yet looking back, it was one of the better connections I had with. Guess situations were one factor, everything else that happened, happened. Whatever. Things remain the same, at least for one hand. The clap won't be made, probably won't happen anyway. Another thing I learned too, is to treasure things more
Many things in life, you don't get second chances. Nationals, cadet life, CIBTC, the list goes on
