Ok, damn. Slept at like 3+am last night, woke up at 3+pm just now -.- Wasted my entire day.... Zzzz... My msn was left as online since last night... Argh =/ Sorry to those whom I apparently dao-ed throughout the day, was actually asleep lol. Opps... Met 29th Batch people for dinner at Dhoby Ghaut. Leonard, Ken, Kah Hoe, Yibin, Jun Wei, Wei Rong, Clifton and Kian Boon. Went looking around for gifts and stuff. Discovered this damn cool shop which sold those kind of display swords and stuff and got this.
Tensa Zangetsu. Ichigo Kurosaki's sword in Bankai form. Really cool. This is from the anime Bleach for those who don't know haha. Thanks so much guys (: Dinner was at this place called Just Acia or something. Somewhere like just above the Mrt line. Pretty cool place. Food was pretty cheap and quite good to eat. Didn't really make me full though haha. Yibin's main target was the free flow of drinks and ice cream there LOL. Went to a LAN shop after that. Same building where 4A gang played pool last week haha. My second or third time in a LAN shop? Don't usually play those games anyway. Played Counter Strike. Pretty addictive haha. Playing such games once in a while with your friends really can be stress relieving lol. Took the train home. Fun and laughter for the whole gathering. Saw Yenjin on the way home too. 29th Batch always man! (:
Ok crap, seriously need to get work and revision done. Ignoring the possiblity of the extension of the school holidays (which I think won't happen), I still need to complete reading through my note and stuff. Still have yet to understand most of them ): I need help.... Haiz... I need motivation to study!! Oh yah, sorry I couldn't join you guys today Rena.
Maybe I'm insensitive to some things? Some things are my fault perhaps. I'm sorry. I'm afraid to try anything again, perhaps. Cause I'll probably end up looking like an idiot, as usual. Fact or fiction? Points to ponder? And I got borrowed this book from the NJ library which sounded quite cool. However, I haven't managed to read it yet and it's due this week -.- Damn. And no floorball for the next 2 weeks. Sian ):
My two partners for LMSC. Rena and Wenqi (:
Song of the day: Because of You -- Kelly Clarkson
Happy Belated Birthday Damian!
Reflect
Last Thursday, went to school to meet Wei Jian to discuss PW, joined by Zhong Xi after that. Discussed till like 3 or 4 plus, then WJ and I did some work before going to Vivo. Met You'en, Joshua Tan and Jaron there. Then Wei Jian and I bombed like 10 over bucks on some stuff at Starbucks... Zzzz... Met Lionel and gang, so we kind of joined those who remained from the Ignis outing lol. Bought Burger King and the bunch of us guys (Van Ho and Jessica left after that) went to the roof and started talking. Jokes and stuff all came about, damn fun talking. The figure doing the pull-ups thing was likened to Mr Yong, Nigel's idol xD Came home at about 11 plus I think.
Friday morning had training, pt and stickwork as usual. We taupoked Shaun during warm-up. Bombed him with water bombs haha. Jun Xiang's idea as a birthday wish for him. HAHA. My shots kept going off target during the games. Need to improve accuracy. Some of the seniors from the older batch came back to play. Saw this very nice slap-shot goal. It was like "oh wow". Lunch with team members at Northpoint. Went to check out some court shoes from the shops there at the same time. Prices were not bad, should check back there some day again. LMSC meeting in the evening. Shan't bother to comment. Saturday was the Floorball workshop! Was like damn late for meeting the rest for lunch. Thankfully I still managed to have my lunch lol. My bad. Workshop was at Republic Polytechnic. They have one whole court just for Floorball!!! Super nice!!! The workshop was quite fun, didn't learn many new things, but we did manage to get exposed to new things. Learned new drills and stuff. There was this penalty try-outs also, scored against the Finnish keeper xD Super lucky haha. Overall quite fun, I like the court haha. One of the people there helped me bend my blade a bit, with her BARE HANDS. When she bent it like almost perpendicular to the shaft I was like LOL, gosh! At least now the blade feels different. Haha. Thanks Kay Wee for going down to help us bring the money also, sorry for the trouble. Dinner at J8's Manhattan Fish Market with Sean, Eugene, Chun Yong and most of the girls' team. It was also Denise's birthday haha. Somehow, it ended up that most of them couldn't finish their meals lol. The rest went to watch Drag Me to Hell after that. Heard all of them got freaked out haha.
Monday, start of LMSC. Slept for 1 hour on Sunday night, survived the whole day amazingly, except the time when I was practically dozing off while helping Zheng Yang prepare stuff lol. Guess most of the things went more or less smoothly. First day, Rena and I scolded one guy for improper attire and stuff, scolded till he cried 0.0 First time for me... Oh man... Day 2 and 3 also went quite ok I guess. Finally wore the Charlie tee lol. Got a little freaked out cause there was a slight problem in showing the vid during the grad ceremony. Thankfully it managed to work in the end. LMSC is finally over. It had definitely been an ardous journey for all of us, definitely not easy. As Desmond sir had said, take it as a learning journey. Yeah, new experience for me, since for one I don't recall having actually properly planned something lime this before. Furthermore, I'm more of an on the ground person I think, not really a planning type, so well, new stuff learnt. Big thanks to all the instructors who came down and helped out in the event. Big thanks to those who guided us in this journey. Lastly, not forgetting my dear partners! Thank you WENQI and RENA for everything. Thanks so much for being there together with me on this whole process. I'm pretty thankful for having them as partners and that we're able to work well together and support each other. Thanks guys (: I would probably have more to say but oh well, don't know how to type them down I guess haha. Thanks Terence also, for supporting me and lending a listening ear. As what people say, as an instructor, as long as the cadets benefit, we're ok with whatever we get and go through. Quite true, I believe many of them would have learnt important and valuable stuff. (: Oh, somehow got a very bad headache on Day 3 as well. No idea why.
Thursday was supposedly the floorball outing. It started at like 9:30am or something. Joined them only at like 5pm -.- Woke up at like 12 plus or something. You'en called if to ask if they could come over to print stuff. So they came, printed, then we went to YCK CC to propose our stuff to the people as part of PW. It was actually successful haha. Went down to Vivo to meet the rest. As they mentioned, was in time to take the photo -_-''' At least I turned up ok... Haha. A few remained then they wanted to watch a movie, left front row seats so they decided against it. Ate ice cream at Ben & Jerry's. The menu had some $88 item. Like who will eat that seriously?? Ok, then ended up flying down to Dhoby Ghaut to meet the 4A gang. Took a while to find Cathay -_-''' Ate at Astons. Food's good haha. Saw Edmund and Jia Han there haha. Went to play pool after that. Sian, still not confident for my long range shots. Next time practice haha. Saw Nicholas Ng, Jared and Greg there haha. Small world. Went home with Melissa and Siyun after that. Thankfully there was 857 there haha.
Friday morning had floorball training. All of a sudden, cui diao. Enire standard for PT and stickwork dropped. Argh crap. Officially the last training with our seniors. We're on our own now. Thanks mainly Adrian, Darius, Wei Jie, Soon Kiang and Kay Wee for all your guidance these few months. May all of us excel and reach for our target next year (: Meeting with Joanne and gang about some FB matters, then we went to Northpoint for lunch. Kian Boon, Nigel and Wei Shian joined us. After that, went to Bishan library to do some work with Nigel and Wei Shian. Met Wen Qi, Rena, Kian How and Zheng Yang for dinner at Pizza Hut, then went to the playground to talk, saw Priscilla. Sorry to hear about your phone man.
Saturday morning, supposed to be play basketball with 29th Batch people. Ended up waking up late... Zzzz... At least still managed to spend some time with them haha. And sorry Jun Wei I forgot your birthday was yesterday!!! Went to Bishan library but there was totally no space... Ended up going to AMK library to do some work. Dinner with family, ate at this italian restaurant or something, good food. Bought some clothes also. As described, "now I won't see you going out in the same clothes every other day" Haha. Today, nothing much, afternoon at library again. I need help for Physics!!
For me personally, I didn't really feel much. Maybe up till now I'm not absolutely clear of the situation of some things perhaps, that's why I don't feel much at times. However, throughout the whole journey, I started seeing things, I started hearing things. Slowly, I started feeling very frustrated over some matters, even got pissed off at one point. The way some things are done, how they are delivered, were they necessary? Perhaps let's be objective, some things I can get the rationale perhaps, but others? I don't know, the whole situation is making me feel like crap. Underhand shooting? All the things that are done behind the scenes? Maybe the thinking is different. As they say, different people have different perspectives on things. However, as much as I'm trying to be neutral and trying to see things objectively, I can't turn a blind eye to some of the things that happened. Are some things being blown out of proportion? I don't know, it's a thought. Whatever the case, like I told someone, my perspective on certain things have definitely been changed. One thought that also occurred to me: This is actually a taste of reality. In the outside world, there will always be such people, live with it. Moving on, yah, Ds said something that kind of indrectly meant that I shouldn't have joined the little circle while he was talking to them. Yah, my fault again, I affected the mood or something. Yeah, guess all the things piled up and resulting in us caving in on Wednesday. Have not actually broken down in front of so many people for who know's how long. No idea why I even caved in. Weakling. Sorry if I made you guys worried R and W. Bad experience maybe. I don't like letting my emotions getting the better of me. Yet, this whole damn issue affected my whole mood definitely. Physically and mentally fatigued. Sorry to the team and 4A people for a bit of the sian mood/look I gave, sorry I didn't meet up to expectations for training also. On to another issue. I knew I shouldn't have done anything. Look at what happened now, the very basic communication is also screwed. Reaching to the extent that I had to look like an idiot when I had to ask 3 times just to get a damn reply?! Stopped some time back already. I'm just trying to be nice now, but oh no, apparently that's not allowed -.- Is being nice that hard? Dao-ing for no rhyme or reason seriously has no point at all. Stop it. A big misunderstanding? Yeah maybe.
Ok, in moments on frustration, typed all that out. Probably had more elaborate thoughts on the mentioned matters, but I can't think now -.- I never liked blasting like that. My mind's clogged up, everytime I think of this issue, I get very frustrated. Haiz. Anyway, saw this quote on TV Mobile while on the to school last week: "Having a dream is what keeps you alive." Quite true and quite cool haha. Alsogot spammed on msn just now about the poll on the channelnewsasia website. The results of the poll are hilarious haha.
And Eugene is coming back soon!! (:
Happy Belated Birthday Shaun!
Happy Belated Birthday Nigel!
Happy Belated Birthday Edmund!
Happy Belated Birthday Jun Wei!
Happy Birthday Enzon!!
The worst is when you can't even remember why you're fighting
Song of the day: Fall to Pieces -- Avril Lavigne
Hey all. Last Friday, had training again, long distance running, then stickwork. Lunch at school, then took bus back with Warren. Bathed, waited for Zikai then took 76 to East Coast Park. Fun part comes here. Dropped off at VJ, then we were told to go to area F. We were at area D so we thought not too bad, walk a bit bah. We ended up walking for 1 damn hour!!! WTH!!! Walk until siao man lol. Reached there only at like 8:30pm or so? And we were at VJ at about 7:35pm -_-''' Met up with the rest, ate some random stuff like marshmallows and mamee lol. Zikia got thrown into the water, so did Joshua, twice for him. Haha. Somehow, the Terra bbq became some sort of bonding session for the 09SH25 people, for those who went. Damn fun, talk cock, then still got camwhoring somemore, oh gosh. Haha. More randoming around. Ended up leaving the place at like 11pm -_- Caught a cab home with Zikai.
Saturday and Sunday, can't really remember what had happened. Someone please remind me please, stm liao, haiz =/ Monday, went to school, had breakfast, did some work, then went to meet Youen at Little India. We went on our "PW field trip"or something lol. Checked out KK hospital and Tan Tock Seng hospital, tried the temperature taking thing procedure, as part of our project. Shan't bother to elaborate. Got damn freaked out when one the staff in TTSH asked as at the entrance where we were going. Didn't know how to answer 0.0 Awkward moment. After that, went to Burger King at Novena Square for lunch, then headed to Bishan Library to do work. Bumped into Yu Hung there. Did Maths, went for a break then back, a lot of crapping here and there along the way haha. Tuesday was training. Stickwork was at the hockey D there. Under the sun training haha. And the girls' team members are seriously quite funny, every now and then some random stuff would come out lol. Our side that was doing drills was like super laxing kind, as compared to other side. Drills were quite badly done I guess, hard to do on the rough ground lol. Also, sorry Jerrell for whacking your hand during the drills. ): After training, went for lunch at J8 foodbourt with the team. Then we went back to CHS for a while, couldn't use the indoor court. Sian. Ended up playing a bit under the canteen area, pretty short-lived games. Went to Bishan market, bought drinks and came home. Wei Yu came to stay for the night for fun. Didn't do much with him though. I slept at like 10pm =/
Stayed at home the whole day, attempted to do work but failed miserably, instead spent the day doing one proposal. Morning turn on com then sian diao already. -.- At least it proved one thing that's for sure, though maybe it's not purely cause of today but rather everything. I'm incompetent and untrustworthy. Yup, case proven. Screwed up failure -.- Come to think of it, I actually got like 2 whacks right in the face today. Argh, bad day.
Had some thoughts over the weekend about something, plus addtional ones from over the past few days, but I guess I shall pen them down another day, quite tired. Hope I can cheer up soon, stupid lousy mood, can't do any work properly. Haiz...
Happy Belated Birthday Zhao Ming!
Song of the day: 別太溫柔 -- 吳克群
Went to deliver the unit's cadet manuals to Peirce in the afternoon. Talked cock with those who were there... After that, went to J8 to scout for something. Finally managed to get what I needed to get after like 1 hour plus? Hard time choosing -_- At least it's finally done, now just need to execute what I need to do. After that went to the library and attempted to do Maths. Took damn long just to do a few questions, keep doing wrongly... Zzzz... Somehow I bumped into a number of people. Met Jerold, who did some work with me, saw Yanlin, Zhuang Yi, Yunn Li (somehow we know each other by sight) and Xavier, lol... Pigged out on some of the stuff I used to like to eat in Bishan during the library times and stuff haha. As described by Jerold, "you pig" haha... Ok, technically all this is considered to have happened yesterday haha.
Yesterday was quite a long day. Had floorball for practically the whole day. Had pt, stickwork and interview. Had some pw meeting with some teacher called Miss Champagne I think. As quoted by Youen, "our pw has hope!" Lol... Training with coach followed at like 3 plus or so. Learnt some stuff. Season's debrief by coach after that, followed by announcing of Exco positions. Talks followed, then dinner with Yong Le, Sean, Shaun, Eugene, Warren, Hun Quan and CHun Yong at Amk Hub. Talked cock and stuff, spamming lame stuff and jokes here and there lol. And I think I'm like the suay-est guy around lah, bit my tongue again.... -.- Quite painful, and it's like around the same area as where I bit my tongue the last time... Ouch... =/ Came home and like knocked out, can't even remember that I went online until some people told me like today... Zzz... Still quite tired out from the trainings, have yet to recover lol.
Mixed feelings about a number of things now, for one, worried? Dunno... I hope things go well. Another, confused, don't know what to do now. And another, just don't want to lost anything that means a lot to me. Yeah, random stuff. One more question that more often than not surfaced to my mind. I know I shouldn't be saying this kind of stuff here, but what the heck. Why did I become a CI? Do I regret having gone through the course? Has my passion died off? Haven't found the answer for this yet. Maybe I might know soon. Side note, I don't need to clear my probation already. I don't have enough HQ hours.... Haiz....
Training again tmrw plus Terra barbeque!! Should be able to go I guess. Thing is, how to go to East Coast Park? Lol
Song of the day: Faint - Linkin Park
Yesterday had the Chem lecture for entropy. After that went to play squash with Jaron and gang. Played for like ages, before going for lunch, then meeting with Eugene, Sean and Joanne. Maths consultation, then went to play floorball with those 3. Played for about 1 hour plus? Quite fun lol...
Today's training, pt plus stickwork. Pretty exhausted after training for some reason. My forearm muscles are aching a bit. My blade also took some damage today, accidentally stepped on by Daryl during the games. Thankfully it didn't break, haha... Taupoked Jun Xiang after training. Haha. Lunch, J1s went to the Pizza Hut near Coronation Plaza. We were like eating dine-in at a take-away outlet lol. Oh well. Went to Bishan with Eugene and Sean after that. Went back to CHS to collect the cadet manuals saw the shooters as well. Went back to Bishan library to join the other 2 and did some maths (took like damn long to do a few questions) Ate dinner with them then home-ed.
Oh yeah, my Dad took his flight to China on Sunday night. I wish him a safe trip (: Oh, the check in-queue was insanely long I tell you haha.
Oh yah, got owned on msn on Sunday night. Someone came up with an acronym for my name lol... You wouldn't believe who came up with this haha, super funny
B ecause
R eally
Y ou
A re
N oob
Owned lol
Happy Birthday Jun Xiang!!!
Happy Birthday Sheena!
Happy Birthday Yap Chien!
