I haven't had much time to update this place, nor do I have the mood to most of the time. The journal in camp keeps me busy with perhaps politically correct thoughts to pen down, well most of the time at least. The most direct solution would be to abandon this place or close it down. But no, I can't bring myself to do that. My blog was the avenue where I could let my thoughts flow and prevent myself from going crazy during the times of emotional roller coasters, especially last year. And it shall continue to be hopefully. Perhaps after this long period and once I'm able to access my blog whenever I want
Somewhere back in the sands of time, I know I left my heart behind. Through this limbo lies a wandering soul, searching aimlessly around. But in the end, perhaps we'll find the answers in this mess, perhaps realisation will finally come through, perhaps it was just in our head all this time
I really have no idea man
Happy Birthday Singapore!
Went out for lunch with Chin, Shian, Joshua Tan and Jaron at Old Airport Road food centre there, had stuff like satay and durian/strawberry tau huay lol. Pool at Dhoby after that before meeting my dad and brother for dinner at swensens! Rather pleasant day I guess (:
Maybe the problem lies with me, for whatever that seems to be happening. Oh well, back to camp, ATP tomorrow. Let's try for marksman badge! Back to limbo, wait or is that actually our reality?
Something from TNP as part of an advertisement by Levi's:
When all is said and done, have you done or said enough? Have you just gone along for the ride, or have you steered destiny's hot rod? When you leave this world, did you make it any better than it was when you arrived? All you need is all you've got, your wits and the clothes on your back. Your epitaph is yours to earn, your legacy is yours to make. Go forth
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Well it's been some time since I did a proper post. This isn't going to be much of one either (compared to those in the past at least), but I shall give it a shot
Quite a number of things have changed so far. Officially moved to LCK Camp II. Shan't bother to comment about anything there, shall just say it's freaking different from AFTC. Had the National Day re-dedication ceremony today. Quite a few scenes today that made me really wonder about the values of leading by example, and those who wear legitimate ranks of commanders. Guess it all boils down to the value of respect once again.
Had a pretty good weekend, besides a small bout of some apparent unhappiness somewhere that affected me pretty much. Other than that, met the 28 guys, some of them at least, met the clique for the food hunt down Chinatown mainly. Had dinner with my family to celebrate mum's birthday. Had a nice chat and walking around with Joanne and Kimberly around town area. Pretty grateful for the fairly pleasant weekend I guess (:
So well, for now specialised phase II is already underway, because of the way things are, my weekends are so fragile. Thankfully we haven't gotten any confinements yet, though I have a feeling we're that close to getting one, and we might just get one pretty soon. Guess this is a part of life
You're going through probably one of the toughest times you've experienced so far, I know perfectly well how it feels. A part of me wished that I could do more to be there to help you as much as possible, but I can't cause I have my own battle here to try to conquer. Hopefully I'll be able to help in any small way or so. Our spirits will always be there cheering you on, and I really hope you'll emerge triumphant at the end of your own journey here. It will be your story to tell. For you, you're going through another new phase of life, something brand new, something fresh. I'm glad that you're taking it real positively despite the evident challenges ahead. It won't be easy for sure. Yet with this phase comes something I more or less foresaw some time back. As of one of my fears, slowly but surely, things will start drifting apart. I can't do much, cause I know it is your future involved here, and it is your life that you should make meaningful and as eventful as possible. I don't want any of this to sound selfish or something, definitely not. Everyone has their own right to live their lives their way. Like everyone else, as you move on to the next chapter, I just hope that the bonds that we share won't fade away just like that. Guess it applies to everyone else too
On the other hand, I guess I should count my blessings that the rest of us here will stay together and fight this fight together. So many people have gone through it, we shall just have to go through it too
I'm in a very strange kind of mood, it isn't exactly happy, it isn't exactly emo. I guess I'm just resigned, and taking things as they come.
Maybe it's the music I've been listening to for the past 1.5 hours or so, or maybe it's the situation whatsoever. So many thoughts keep bombarding my mind, I just wished I had more time sometimes to type it all out here rather than keep it in more often that not
A freaking long way more to go, 22 weeks
