Follow where your heart leads you, to infinity and beyond

I always just wanted to be accepted, but these dark shadows will always haunt me and pull me back in, cause my dark side will always deem myself as second class to everyone else, even back home. It just seems to be ingrained in me, and I can't get rid of it. Some emotional scars just can't be healed, and you just get overwhelmed every now and then. I guess this is just one of those days.

mentally challenged @ 1:30 AM 0 comments

Would have typed more to mark my return back here. But essentially, my current state can be summed up simply:

Tired, just freaking tired

mentally challenged @ 12:44 AM 0 comments

We're not broken, just bent.

Oh these times are hard, yeah they're making us crazy, don't give up on me baby

mentally challenged @ 11:24 PM 0 comments

Took What I Hated and Made It Part of Me

I'm really not too sure what I've become sometimes. Have I become impatient? Have I become short tempered? Have I become so intolerant of some of the small, minute things? There was a time when I had told mysef, to learn from the mistakes of others, to understand what you see on the media, tv shows and what not and not to take those overly perfect situations as the guideline. Patience was key. I dunno, I seem to have become more demanding, saying some of the not so nice things when I feel things are not right. Should I even get frustrated in the first place? I seem to be unloading my expectations of how I, and I specifically, feel things should be. Selfish maybe. Old friend said that some of these actions and behaviours are normal and all. Maybe the problem is me now. No one is perfect. I am definitely no way close. But have I started to make unrealistic expectations of others? If that's the case, I really am one hypocritical creature.

Essentially, I'm starting to take what I've hated and  made it a part of me. Maybe the external stress is starting to get to me, and to us.

I'm sorry. I really need to reflect.

mentally challenged @ 2:47 AM 0 comments

Met up with an old friend. Studied till late, then went out for supper and some chit chat. Was probably the weirdest late night conversation I've ever had haha

mentally challenged @ 1:36 PM 0 comments

Okay, so my luck hasn't exactly been the most awesome during the past 2 weekends. Last weekend had issues with the car when it suddenly overheated on the way home after sending my brother to Pasir Ris. It started off with the aircon spewing out hot air again like the weekend before (which stopped after a while the last time it occurred so I didn't think much of it) and straight after the over heating symbol came out. Pretty much of a shock and had to stop the car and all, didn't want to go to a possibility of the car engine overheating and exploding into flames and what not. Luckily I had my auntie and uncle to help with that. As for the weekend that just passed, first thing on Sunday morning during my shower I discovered that the damn shower tap thingy couldn't be turned off -.- So well had to shut of everything and try to rectify the problem. Spent a good 4 hours plus trying to solve the issue. Had to miss Accounting lecture to wait to collect the spares. Once again, thankfully my grand uncle was present to help out. Honestly I have no idea how I would solve any of those issues without the help of others. Ah well, new experiences in problem solving I guess.

Saturday was pretty eventful, Sec 1 Swearing-In ceremony in the morning at WSS, match against Eagles with Blizzards' first win and finally NPAP in the evening. Gonna miss playing floorball for a while due to exams. Though it's pretty sian to see that your skills are deproving and stuff. Haiz.. Shall work on it after 9th May!!

So I'm still playing catch up for all my work for tutorials and stuff. 3 submissions next week: 1 presentation for QR, 1 presentation for International Trade and the article review as well. Halfway through Week 12 already. No choice. Just chiong.

Side note, Mum and Dad are coming back soon!! Can't wait (:

mentally challenged @ 1:23 PM 0 comments

Why so much emptiness?

mentally challenged @ 2:21 AM 0 comments

Hell week's finally over! Taking the week to really try and chillax for a bit and recover. Really felt the effects of 2 weeks of insufficient sleep during the match on Saturday against TJ alumni. :/ Whole body just lagged and all during the match, burden max! Lost 10-3 in the end. Sunday's match against Hoplites was much better on a personal level. Missed the 3rd penalty of my life :/ Scored 2 goals for the first time in a single match though! Working to go for more! Hopefully Blizzards will be able to pick up from here!

GI presentation on Monday went alright I guess, not too sure about the feedback from the Prof cause it seemed pretty ambiguous. Guess we'll have to see how the report turns out. Went for a run just now cause was feeling really restless and moody. Much better feeling now just that I needa turn in early I guess haha. Shall continue working!

Side note: Some people obviously have an IQ level much higher than mine and their GPA would probably own mine, but seriously where's the basic communication man??

mentally challenged @ 10:58 PM 0 comments